memorable day

today was the first time i gave tution. haha, to this boy tt yq introed. he's really enthu abt sch work, really quite rare. so of course it's very easy to teach him lar. tutioning him maths. initially we agreed on 2hrs a wk, but he thinks he wants 4hrs now. not sure if i can manage but i'll see if we can work things out.

met p today at millenia before service, cause i was feeling sad again this morning. and it's really alot of revelations tt i got through talking to him, listening to him, and just crying on his shoulders. it was quite embarrassing cause we were actually just walking along when i broke down. we just stopped and he just comforted me. so we were just standing there with don't know how many pple looking on. but really at tt moment u don't care liao. then it started to drizzle. really, it's quite drama to think abt it, but i felt very much better and there're a few pts i've come to realise.

this heart belongs to God and He will take care of it.

i'm just going to give up altogether liao, p advised me tt just not tokking at all would really help. it's silly of me to hope tt everything would be the same as before, completely unaffected. it will be, and there's no pt trying to salvage the situation. just let go and suan(4) le(4).

now i understand why it's so hard for pple to still keep in close contact after a brkup. i had grand illusions but really what's the pt trying to maintain something tt has not much value really?

and the most impt thing i realised today is tt there are pple ard me who care. genuinely care. pple i can approach and sit with, who will listen to me and who will offer a shoulder to lean on and a hand to comfort. i've just been looking at the wrong person. thanks jg, thanks p.

i tried to be strong. i fell. there's no pt in trying to be strong. let your friends love u back into wholeness. but i can feel tt today was different, just feel it.

the right pple to comfort is impt. some pple just have tendencies to make things worse. irritating even. just shoo.