tis the season to be jolly

arh. heard from i in school today tt his friend went to collect his pink ic today. yar, then after i came home k msned me announcing his ord next wed. haha. really, i think alot of guys from my batch are like celebrating in this week or so...

yeah, all no more "slaves of the army" but now as free men.

i've asked myself whether i feel sad or anything. afterall, if i'd not disrupted i would have served my ns liability this very week, and would be free to do anythign i want. but maybe, just maybe, tt freedom is not what i want.

cause i've grown to realise what i'm doing now IS what i want to do. yeah. i think if i had ORDed like the rest, a sense of unknowing would have just engulfed me. i really wouldn't know what to do. take science? in nus? work towards a PhD? take up a scholarship or go w/o one? study business (something tt i thought i wanted to do) or do something like pharmacy? study arts, take geog and be a teacher (again another childhood aspiration).

u get the idea. there're hundreds of ways to go.

but i'm glad i chose medicine. cause i think it fits well with my goals in life. what the career has to offer satisfies the criteria i deem for as a successful life.

admitedly, a minor reason why i chose to do medicine was cause i wanted to get out of OCS quick. haha, there was field camp and a 15km endurance training run coming up. i rem the day of the run was the day i disrupted. well, other unorthodox reasons include a girl tt i was trying to court flying off soon and i thought i needed to gather all the time i had to do as much as possible. sitting around in camp certainly wasn't going to give me much control over my time. haha. on hindsight these are totally RIDICULOUS reasons but still they seemed so substantial at tt time.

but i'm glad there were much more concrete reasons for me to choose my career and i would say i've not regretted the decision at all. :)

and the greatest joke of it all is tt in a way, i took up medicine to leave SAF but i took the medicine admission letter in hand and applied for the scholarship, and ended up signing on as a regular, extending my ORD date by another 12 years. haha. i know the decision is the right one lar. cause i believe in the purpose of the organisation and the role i will fulfill in it with my mbbs.

fellow med guys who haven't ORDed, i think they're doing well. can't speak for everyone of them and how they feel though, but i think they're on par with those who've ORDed too. i think NS is an experience. something to gain from. something tt 2 years in medicine has to offer to. same thing, friends, trials yadayada. haha. and i had always liked to think of me as don't need to do ns, just go straight to work. and anyway to those who're celebrating ur ORD, indeed it's a joyous occasion in completing another chapter in your life and i share ur joy. yeah. congrats and enjoy the path ahead. :)