lost in a world

hmmm was playing d2 for practically the entire afternoon just now... sigh. didn't find any nice items despite having mf-ed for so long. ok, for those who are able to grasp a faint shadow of what i mean, great! for those who don't, realise it's really inconsequential anyway. :) haha, i'm down to getting a last amulet to complete the set of items tt my sorceress is wearing!

anyway.

haven't seen some pple for a long time, and i remember the recent times when i saw these pple, i don't even feel like talking to them. it's weird. cause i just feel very uncomfortable in their presence. hmmm. and i can feel tt a timeout is long overdue, which is why a unilateral one has already been established.

oh yes, tml's outing with some friends. still haven't decided what to do yet though. hmmm, better call zj to tell him too b4 i forget.

to a certain extent, it's true tt i've been avoiding them, because i'm afraid tt when i meet with them i'ld be engaging in yet another series of mindless, 1-way rampage of insults and sacarstic remarks, which are, frankly, still mysteriously finding their way through various modes to reach me.

planning to have a short no-frills trip to bangkok, perhaps in june. it's just so fun hunting for all the budget airlines and accomodation, and ur own itenary. hehe. still looking for 2 pple to join us actually. 4's a nice group size.

in fact, this has not been the first time i've felt so out-of-place with these friends. hmmm. i recall sometime ago where i too, was feeling tt what was before me was not too right and bailed out. seemed irresponsible at tt time and received alot of silly comments from some friends, but in retrospect i still feel tt it was the best move.

oops... paiseh, still haven't scanned ur anime yet andre. :( btw for those who don't know, andre draws really good anime and gundam. breathtaking. i pomise i'll start tonight. haha don't club me!

anyway, i'm feeling a little bewildered+irritated+indifferent+resigned right now. and i found tt i'm not the only one who feels in such a way abt these friends as i ask around. and we start asking ourselves why pple are we not going hk.

to those who have just finished their exams, rem to enjoy ur hols, but don't forget to do ur stuff too.