the mouse like big big rice

aiyar tt stupid jb sent me a link just now, which is sort of a clip for the lau shu ai da mi song. oh man, it's so heart wrenching... make me feel so sad... :( listening to the song on 93.3 is so different cause it's one of those irritating songs too (topping the list is the joline song). haiz, but then watch the clip liao ijust feel so sad...

i think it's often when u've lost someone tt u learn how much u've lost. taking him too much for granted... it's really painful when u've finally lost him and realise how much actually u've lost.

and by that time, it's often too late. but yet u know what a dumbass u've been and just want to do anything and everything to win him back to your side... it's almost impossible then. cause the period when he's learnt not to expect has numbed him. the cocoon of disappointment just got thicker over time when u were still taking things for granted. yet breaking off, he flies away never to return...

is it really impossible for exes to come back tog? i really think it's very very hard... cause the memories are too much to carry and the hurt is too much to bear. on hindsight, it's easy to spot times when u wern't caring enough or wern't considerate enough, and it's easy to regret these times and swearing if given another chance u'ld do it altogether differently... yeah it's easy to spiral into asking yourself why and WHY didn't u give ur 200% at that point.

yet tt's not the worst. cause i rem reading once, it's funny how it's the happy memories together tt hurt most. whilst u know tt it's impossible b/w the 2 of u, everytime u think of those memories it's amost u wish tt u never had them... thinking of them is simply too painful. tt's so true man... each time u pass by the same place, each time u do the same activity, memories all come back. memories tt are just too painful.

too painful.

sometimes all u want in life is a 2nd chance. but then it all falls into place when u realise tt life's not a game, and 2nd chances don't come knocking. but i know i would do things hell differently if i had to do it all over again.

learning to let go is really hard. really really hard, esp when u know u'll are never meant to be. living a life of disappointment and bitterness then seems comparatively easier. :(