noticed that my past few entries were all full of crap. haven't wrote any thought provoking stuff for a long time now. but it's also because there's nothing interesting that happened to me in the recent days.

maybe a little about how the medical course has been thus far yar? something to keep up the worthwhile-ness of visiting this site.

you know, all of us decide to take up medicine for our own reasons. of the people that i see around me, i think i can come up with a few reasons. some do it because they see it as a secure job. a job that will almost guarantee financial success in the years to come. a career that no matter how unillustrious will with absolute certainty guarentee u at least a nice big landed house and at least 1 luxury car. the chauffeur is optional although it will probably be within all doctors' means to hire one. and social status/prestige comes into play here too. social class and pay come into play concomitantly almost all the time. a 'less selfish' and 'more selfless' reason would be those who come from families with very slight financial burdens and they see being a docor as a sure way of getting out.

and some others do medicine for the interest. not the interest in being a doctor, but rather interest in how the body works and why this happens and why tt happens. yep, more like interest in human biological sciences, if u would. these people are those who have a higher probability of going into research. your friendly mbbs-phd pple. but people who find this the reason why they have choson to do medcine never ever find this the only reason. because they would find doing bio more interesting. and with their calibre, they would have no trouble at all doing a x2 degree, perhaps in bio and chem, and even go on to get doctorates in both degrees. so why medicine instd? my personal hypothesis is because of the v.strong attractiveness the financial freedom a doctor can enjoy.

no sweat.

another class would be because of aspirations. these group of people have dreamed of being a doctor all the 19 or 21 yrs of their lives. and when we stop to ask ourselves why people aspire to be doctors, we find ourselves coming back all the way around to link back to 3 main underlying factors. money, fame, ideals.

which subtly brings me to the next class. the number of people who fall into this category are, sadly, not many. cause the majority of us have come to terms that this world is not possible to be as ideal as we ever hope to be. never as fairy-tale like as the stories weaved to us in tt pre-school class. but these people believe very strongly in what they believe in (which is the only reason why they are still around). really, would have alot more stuff to say regarding this category, but maybe not this time. all i'll say now is may their tribe increase.

the other caste are those who find that doing medicine is almost nearly a scholarship in itself. these lost individuals are lost for orientation after they received their a-lvl results. maybe not good enough for a scholarship, and perhaps even tried applying, but either got rejected or the better ones got offered a scholarship, just tt it wasn't quite what they were looking for. or some just didn't apply at all, although their results > qualify them for one. i know of at least 1 individual who got fantastic results but the only scholarship he applied for was the nus one. he's in med now anyway.

and of course some people become doctors not because of their own aspirations, but their parents'. which is rather sad in my opinion. cause your life's your own!!! your parents have had their chance at living life, and now it's your turn. so, you think u should live your life for them? get real. then who should live your life? your children? it's all a vicious cycle here. and don't you go depriving your children of their dreams. and simply cause we're not talking about filial piety here. cause parents are to be honoured. but not to let them govern your every decision. tt time has passed. honour them and accord them with respect. but live your life as u would. simply because it's your life.

felt quite strongly about that for some reason. no, i have a healthy relationship with my parents. luv them. *hugzs*

and the last category that most if not all people fall into would be tt of a combination. i know i'm in this category for sure. all for me the circumstances are a little unique too, cause i signed on with the saf (a decision tt till now is still unfathomable by many). so there're alot more complicated factors that i shall abstain from discussing at the moment. maybe next time.

but one thing's for sure, i'm sure glad tt i chose to take up the medical course offered. and although some nights when mugging hard for CA (in the past) i ask myself hope, what have u got urself into??, at the end of it i find tt there's this agreement within me tt this THE right path tt i chose.

anyway. waiting earnestly for clinical years.