feelings... nothing more than feelings

isn't it weird how God created us all with feelings? what a wonderful thing it is to be able to have emotions, to be able to feel differently about different situations and to be able to express ur opinion on stuff happening around u.

but it's amazing stuff, this feelings thing. nothing else has been able to make someone happy beyond words, or sad beyond hope. feelings are often strong stuff, things tt make us do silly things - feelings of hoplesssness and desperation tt drives the man to suicide; love tt drives the boy to stand up and declare his passion for his girl to the horizon. but always, feelings are given a disproportionately large influence on our lives and actions.

many a times we're taken on an emotional roller coaster by the chain of events tt occur around us. often it is an unconcious process, but it is always we, who are the ones who allow feelings to bring us on a wild ride. yep, through every step of a new experience; through each event tt happens in our lives, feelings are there. and feelings are strong. all the way through the initial fear, followed by hope, joy, love, expectation, assumption, disappointment, anger, sadness, pride, depression and ending with healing and love.

yep, those feelings are stong. and everyone is as strong if not more intense than the preceeding one.

feelings are real, and they're there always. every step of the way. but what's real-er are the promises of God, tt'll he'll be there every step of the way with me. through it all - through fear, hope, joy, love, expectation, assumption, disappointment, anger, sadness, pride, depression, healing and love.

it's real important to keep tt conciousness in ur mind, and ur heart. tt's something i've learnt. no matter how hypocritical i may feel and no matter how 'bad' an example i may be setting, it ain't matter. it's not me man, it never was about me. not any one of us too. :) now hope, never forget tt.

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a yandao's sending me a song now. haha, it was a song he was looking for for almost 2 wks (?) liao. should be nice rite?

wah i tell u, today's tution was tu(4) xue(3). explain until i want to vomit liao lar. and something tt i realised is tt i always spend >2hrs each time, something like 2hr 15mins each session. hmmm. never mind lar, don't mind. but today really very tired... started to get a little (just a little) irritated when repeated explaination didn't get through. couldn't be more glad to get out of the house.

haha.

hmmm, older than my yrs is quite nice. thanks yandao. sad song lar nonetheless... gonna sleep liao, long wk ahead.