a friend told me today that she just found out tt her ex got attached. and she felt a bit sian. haiz. yar i guess that's the way things are.. having spent time and having memories with the person, it's hard not to feel sad; hard not to think about and brood over the matter, often sprialing down into a state of self pity and start asking all the what-ifs. well, tt also started me reflecting and thus this post.

i'm increasingly thinking that affairs of the heart are really very very very complicated. it's not simple and straightforward of boy-meets-girl, boy-like-girl, boy-marries-girl but instead, relationships themselves are tricky issues what more when you're dealing with a special someone who you intend to spend the rest of your life with. heh. so many things to consider. anyway, i must admit that my views on relationships have changed really so much over the past 2 yrs. no longer the luvy-duvy scenarios tt u see on tv or books. i think they rarely happen in real life and it would even be dangerous to lie hope for that from your partner.

well, because with hope, disappointment may follow. heh. pun not intended.

i've trained myself not to expect so much, not to be so demanding but i guess there's still a long way to go. heh. but compared to the past when i would get very upset when the situation didn't match my 'love-belief' model. haha.

and i think it has made me a happier person. hehe, don't know if it has made me an easier person to get along with, but hopefully so. :) but i guess there's still a long way to go.

aiyoh so headache.