what a memorable day - well spent, throughly enjoyed

this long weekend has been one of exploration and self discovery for me. to learn about myself anew, and to receive fresh revelations and promptings on my course in life. confirmations too. but what seems to be lacking is the courage and conviction to execute them.

there were certain disappointments again, but the joy tt i got from godly fellowship was more than enough to prop me up again. sometimes i wonder what's so hard to give up? when i've received so much.

p was telling me i should surround myself with more godly fellowship. i think so too. it's not a psychology thing, neither is it being elitist nor being anti-social nor 'inbreeding'. cause i realise i need the support, if not there may well be a day when i'ld lose it all.

today was a well spent day. met p and junrong to buy valentines' day presents for the cg girls. haha, think it's quite meaningful. total got 7 girls. we bought them each a rose and a handphone chain (those type attach to handphone like an accessory) at bugis. well, we had some food before that at mos burger. wah, the butterfly prawns are fabulous. searching for the presents was quite an adventure, but still settled on making the handphone chains. each of us made for some girls. i made the keychains for amanda/ting/laura. the rest of the girls the other 2 guys made lor. anyway we were really hoping more guys could come down but some (wenshen) went to bai nian, and some (devin) was serving in children's church. alex was uncontactable whilst terry had papers on mon. all the best for ur papers bro. :)

supper was very meaningful too. i really saw how much love each had for the other. there was no masks and no awkwardness. just frank, conversations filled with love for each other. like how we ordered food from all over and shared with each other; how when each dish came pple would automatically offer to pay for it (one dish after another dish); how guys help the girls jia(2) cai(4) and take order for drinks from everyone at the table. the fellowship was precious.

the laughter, the smiles. the suanning, the conversations.

we lou(1) hei(2)-ed too today. right in a hawker centre (lavender food sq) and although the place was noisy enough, we still enjoyed ourselves very much and made enough noise and laughed loudly enough to attract attentions from tables around us. the blessings tt each of us said as we went round the table put extra special meaning to the session too.

today, i had my fill. in more ways than one indeed. it has been a day tt'll always be treasured. afterall, this is family. this is where i belong.