a exit from somewhere is always an entrance to somewhere else

i just came back from church camp, and i'm really very filled and very refreshed. the title of the camp was ben gen, meaning the benjamin generation.

and we are, the benjamin generation.

"but benjamin's serving was five times as much as any of theirs..." gen 43:34

"the lad cannot leave his father, for if he should leave his father, his father would die..." gen 44:22

"but to benjamin he gave three hundred pieces of silver and five changes of garments..." gen 45:22

it's truely amazing and touches my heart every time i read this passage.

jacob personifies god whose heart was so much knitted with us, so much in love with us. joseph personifies jesus who was sent before hand into egypt to prepare salvation and provide for his brothers. benjamin was the youngest, who did nothing throughtout but cry at the end when he was reunited with his brother. yet benjamin received 300 pieces of silver (3 being a number of divinity and silver signifying redemption. jesus being tt divine price of redemption) and 5 (grace) changes of clothing (signifying holiness and covering).

do you see jesus in the story? now i know when they say there's life when u read and see jesus in the bible everywhere. not only in the gospels. it's one big love story.

i think my season of drought is over. made many more kingdom friendships, got to know many pple much better and made totally new friends too who're fantastic. i think i'm going back to serving again.

every church camp so far has been a major change in my life. something great's going to happen.
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and i guess this is the last post for elpis.blogspot.com.

but before that i'll finish the tag by avaris. :)

Things you enjoy, even when no one around you wants to go out and play. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Make a list, post it to your journal... and then tag 5 friends and ask them to post it to theirs.

1. playing dota
2. listening to music, 93.3/jay/emi/laura
3. eating - ice cream and chocolates and everything nice
4. going for a good run
5. singing out loud

thanks to all who have read and cared. :) i really really appreciate the concern and kind words shown through the past time.

i'll still keep this site so tt i can read my past posts, as one of my purposes of setting up this blog was to be some sort of online diary.

my life in pt form

arh. saw this list tt someone posted and decided to do it too! wahahaha... it took me almost 2 hrs to complete it... aiyoh. but then again whilst i was filling it up it did make me reflect on my life, what has happened in this past 20.5 years, and really what i hope to achieve in the future. hmmm, a bit hard to fill in everything, esp the 'future' which somehow i didn't see clearly what exactly i wanted. haha, and of course, some interesting things about me too here.

Ten Years Ago (1995), I...
still collected stickers and had a nice sticker book
was surviving on 50c pocket money a day (in p6)
realised I got no ball-sense. at all
watched my first movie (in a proper cinema)
was moderately plump

Five Years Ago (2000), I...
played starcraft almost everyday
realised I could run fairly well
started to lose weight
wanted to be a farmer/cook/businessman
carried TWO bags to school

Three Years Ago (2002), I...
realised I couldn’t apply for any scholarships
got results tt I never got close to smelling my entire life
still thought I wanted to be a farmer/cook/businessman
had my first serious crush
got my heart broken

One Year Ago (2004), I...
ran the longest dist in my life at 1 go
started serving in campus ministry
was doing my 2nd yr med
was happiest and saddest (ever)
made many many new life-long friends

1st Half 2005, I...
dyed my hair
bought my 1st portable music player with chio earphones
started my clinical career
bought my diving equipment
stopped serving in campus

So far this week, I...
have had my med/surgery eclinics tests
have felt irritated
ate lots of high calorie/Na+ foods
had 1 bad headache (which is enough, tyvm)
bought a new wallet (damn chio)

Yesterday (310505), I...
was damn drained
said “yes ma’am” a record no. of times
missed and wished, hoped and smiled
cleared my locker (FINALLY)
ate chicken rice (DAMN OILY)

Today (010605), I...
had the shortest day in school
looked at the case notes first for my surgery test
went window shopping at isetan
made 2 more new friends
my phone batt went totally flat

Tomorrow (020605), I will...
stay at home because there’re no lessons
DOTA the whole day
have a sweet dinner
try to install “Knights of the Republic”
go for some exercise

In the rest of the week, I will...
rest and enjoy
finish up with CSFC
think of what jap attire to wear for camp
try to do some reading I was passed
slack

2nd Half of 2005, I will...
be at AH(med)/SGH(surg)
turn 21
make my new passport
go somewhere good for holiday
start running seriously again

Next year (2006), I will...
do well in school
love more and think less
prioritise
buy my own Dx kit
be more independent emotionally

In the next three years (2008), I will...
graduate (yeah… can’t wait)
speak fluent hokkien
go taiwan for holiday
refurbish/renovate my room
attend some musical (haha, attempt to be cultured)

In the next five years (2010), I will...
Be happily working
get a flat (:
go on a eating spree around the world (hehe)
not feel tired after 36hr night calls
go to maldives

In the next ten years (2015), I will...
buy a chio car
be trained as an anaesthetist
buy an convection oven and learn to bake
join some club where I can relax with my family
go to some 3rd world/developing country to learn and live