Monday, February 28, 2005

birdtalk

today i was studying in the library when a little yellow bird perched onto a tree nearby and began telling me a most interesting story:

" there was this silly boy who was returning home from the market one day when he met his friend. yadayada went the conversation and she suddenly said, "oh, i'm so longing for custard pudding at the moment. yar but don't know where do they sell it now leh... alright going home now, see u!"

the silly boy thought to himself, 'arh. i do know of this place by the river tt sells wonderful custard puddings... i think i'll go and get some for her. maybe then she'ld realise tt it's not only him who can be sweet! tt'll make her day!'

so off skipped the silly boy to the riverside bakery to get the custard puddings.

on the way back, the silly boy saw the girl sitting around talking to her neighbours. he thought to himself again, 'i think i want to surprise her! hehe. maybe i'll go to her house and drop the custard puddings there and when she gets home she'll have a nice pleasant surprise! sweet puddings for a sweet girl...' so he made a long detour around the forest to arrive at his friend's place.

he soon arrived at her place and peered through the windows. very much to his disappointment, he saw him sitting in her house! the silly boy was so disappointed and dejected that he hung his head low and scurried off home. he saw his friend along the way home but just walked off quickly, hiding the box of custard puddings behind him.

when he got home, he saw that he had some other friends who had come to visit him. "what's tt?" one of his friends asked upon seeing the box of custard puddings. "oh, nothing much. u want? haha, let's open it and share!" and open it they did; enjoyed it they did. but somehow on the palate of the silly boy, the custard puddings didn't seem as sweet as they were fabled to be. abit sour perhaps. "

after the little yellow bird finished her story she flew off. well, at least tt story took some thought off my mind off the many hours of mugging...

Sunday, February 27, 2005

filled to overflowing

today i was supposed to complete pharmaco, but i'm just slightly > 1/2 way through. oh man. grace grace. and it's 2230 liao now... but i just don't feel like studying now lar... cause today was such an exciting day!

today's message by pastor was superb. really. i haven't heard such a faith-imparting message tt has brought me back so strongly back into the conciousness of his love for me; and it's been so long since i've felt so fed and filled. filled to the overflowing. i've got a feeling tt this ca will be different man. haha. i'm already studying alot less than i used to liao. but i know tt by no means will god let me down.

whoah. actually i hesitated in making tt last statement cause it's "easier to say your sins are forgiven than to say rise, take up your bed and walk." but i just know man. i just know this time around.

anyway today luke came down for service with me! i'm SO happy lar. i was just leaving the house liao then my dad asked me to ask him and see if he wants to come along too. i asked, and he said ok! haha. though i had to wait for him to bath and change, it was all worth it man. i could see he enjoyed the message really alot and so at the end of it all i asked him if he would like to come for sat's combined ministry meeting. and he actually said ok! haha. i'm so so so happy man.

after service today, those in cg who went for 3rd service gathered outside to pray for our exams. (most of us are having exams ard this period, incld ml who's graduating liao in <1mth time. so excited for her) yeah it was good. i luv my cg man. oh, john also joined us though he was not from our cg. haha. just kidding. i've always regarded him as part of us always and he's always the one who's disqualifing himself. :P

i then went shopping with luke and had dinner with him at delifrance. totally enjoyed myself cause it's been a looong time ever since we had some time together liao. quality time spent tog! :)

oh man. i just feel something powerful happening in my life. something is going to happen. i'm feeling such a strong sense of destiny and purpose, love in this place. alex is now playing christian songs from his comp next door and the songs are just wafting into my ears. absolutely soothing. and my bro has been something tt is on my mind for a long time liao. he attends my previous church and sometimes i can't help but be worried abt what he hears. cause what i used to hear in the past in tt church wasn't very helpful and there was pratically no walk at all. no life, no walk = dead.

but hearing all tt today and seeing all tt has happened to both my brothers has really made me really really happy. today, not only joy, but happiness has visited me. :)

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i bought the jay chou concert cds, which came with his qi(1) li(3) xiang(1) mtv! splendid doesn't even begin to describe what his mtv was. i mean. i'm totally blown away man. i spent a good hour plus watching his mtvs and trying so hard to get a screenshot of some of the mtvs to use as my desktop wallpaper, but to no avail. somehow real-player doesn't allow you to do tt. maybe copyright protection.

it's jay fever all again, just like the post-concert times.

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something very interesting also happened today at the atm, i asked my brother to withdraw $ for me whilst i go to toliet. the options on the atm were misaligned and he ended up withdrawing a huge sum of $, which i carried around till i got home. will be looking to deposit them soon...

well, at least for a moment i felt really wealthy. haha. maybe it's a sign. and at least i understood how rich pple felt when they were walking the streets with lots of dough in their pockets - worried.

HAHA.

anyway once i saw how much he withdrawed i almost freaked out and immediately pleaded blood over the $ tt none of it would go missing/stolen. well, i'm SURE glad none did. :)

jereme just made my day!

all the way from australia. and to think i was still telling junrong just now abt how we haven't heard from gan ever since he left for australia abt 2 wks ago. really missed him liao. well, we concluded tt he was probably busy with his orientation and settling into his new home tt's why even 1 pi(4) dou(1) bu(4) fang(4).

and he just called. haha, all the way from australia and we had a good 15 mins conversation. i was so concerned abt the phone charges tt's why i kept telling him dont' talk so long yadayada. but it's great to hear his voice. just now when i saw my hdpn ringing at first i was wondering who could it be?? *no number* said the screen. and when i picked up the phone i didn't expect gan to be on the other end! haha.

glad to know tt he's doing well, having LOTS of fun down there, making new friends and finally finding tt he has a distaste for alcohol after being dragged from 1 party to another. as he put it, "it's terrible. everytime they meet they have to drink. terrible."

haha.

something tt i just read off a PhD's blog which i found to be really so relevant to gan so hey bro, if u're reading this: when god sends someone to a new place, he has great plans in store for him. like abraham; joseph; david. come to think of it, even jesus was sent to a foreign place before he accomplished great works. it's exciting. and i see the same promise for u too. it's exciting, it really is.

enjoy yourself in this new chapter of your life. god has gone into the future and he has declared tt it is good. :)

u've got mail!

have u noticed how junk mails tend to get bigger and bigger these days. i just received some junk mail with each being a whopping 138kb. and it's 3 or 4 of those. repeated ones. i mean...

oh well. just received an email telling me i got rejected for the mbbs volunteer thing. bah. thought i was fast enough liao, i mean WHO checks their mail at these times. never would have guessed. next time kuai(4) shou(3) kuai(4) jiao(3) must be even kuai-er. :)

re the issue irritating me

oh man. i just read a friend's blog post and it's so sad. reaffirms my opinions and helps me make alot of decisions tt i'm facing right now.

what i'm hearing from each either person is just so different. told u liao, men don't think the same way as women... but no u wouldn't listen. it's really really fustrating u know. no bluffing. the most fustrating thing is WHY don't u take my advice???

wah lau. i'm really v sad now leh. why should things turn out tt way? even so, what u're doing is not right lar. simply not right. be a bit more sensitive can? don't say u know what u're doing and carry on dealing dmg...

Saturday, February 26, 2005

i'm sick of studying

arh another day. not going to lib to mug today, hope it won't be a wrong decision not to go to sch to study. and end up niah-ing the whole day away. came online and saw qich's nick declaring tt she's sick of studying. haha. yeah, i think alot of pple also liddat liao. well, i'ld like to think tt no matter if u worry or not worry, the papers will still be over soon.

as in like real soon.

it's then a mentality tt u choose to take when facing cas. are u going to let it rule your life and stop all other activities tt matter? of course the ultimate would then be fei(4) qing(3) wang(4) shi(2). thankfully i don't observe anyone ard me who's like that. yeah but i mean things tt u enjoy doing, like sleeping a bit later on weekends; having a good meal with your family; attending cg/church; blogging; talking to friends.

yar, things like that matter more and in many cases they are more consequential than cas.

it is sad to see how many pple ard are depressed and so overtaken by exams. yar. com'on, exams don't rule our lives!! how can i let a series of questions on paper and ink dictate what i'm going to do and how i'm going to go about conducting my life? it's irrational.

studying and exams WILL always be part of the lives of medical students. i mean, studying till 40YO and perhaps beyond tt. if we're going to let exams rule our lives till then i think it's quite sad lar.

but of course, mug away! i just don't like the idea of getting so bothered abt it. but meanwhile, i'm going to do some mugging!

rest and refreshing

well, did take some time off the mugging schedule to attend cg, and was glad i did cause i think i received quite a bit, and was very refreshed by the session. something special tt happened today was tt kim brought down her keyboard from hall and we had a fantastic p&w. the love and presence of god just flooded the place. oh man.

but what actually happened before cg was super demoralising, leaving me really dead tired and very down. i was tokking to devin and wenshen outside the lib after tut and i was really zombified. super demoralised too lor. my tutor was putti and he liked to ask the class qns. and so many questions were answered by practically the entire class, but poor me had no idea what was going on... REALLY DEPRESSING. what's more my seat was quite cramped as we had to squeeze together due to lack of space, and i had to write in an awkward position, resulting in a strained trapezius towards the end of the tutorial... i think i was pulling on my meninges too cause i had this splitting headache... to add, i really couldn't catch everything putti was saying and ended up turning my head left and right, left and right just to copy what he said.

i gave up in the end. JUST HECK IT. so i sat down, put my pen down and listened. if i perish i perish. it was soon the end of tut and i went down thinking i could get a cup of coffee to perk myself up. then...

i dropped my file.

scattering all my notes on the floor. now, i brought all my mb notes to mug tt day, and my file was super thick.

freddy saw me in tt lang(2) bei(4) state and came over to help me pick things up. thanks man.

then i went over to the vending machine but found tt i didn't have coins... omg. then thought, cash card! inserted cash card but they say it's invalid.

i tell u, i almost pengz-ed. i think i was just this short of banging my head against the wall. (haha, alot of pple would want to see me do tt right..)

in the end went into the lib and took a v short 5 min nap before going out again, met clement and went to collect notes, paid the photocopying auntie and got coins in change. went to buy coffee, had an early dinner and the world seemed so much better all of a sudden.

u know, actually today i was thinking of not going down for cg. well, tt is, if i could meet up with X instead. also cause i was super tired. super SUPER tired. but somehow things just worked out the way they turned out today and there i was at cg. hehe. one of the reasons also being tt i had specially called alex down and asked him to diedie must come. ei, then if i don't go also hsou(1) bu(4) guo(4) qu(4) marh.

today was also one of the rare times tt we went for supper after cg. went fong seng and we all ordered fried noodles and drinks. had a teh tarik, maybe tt's why i'm still awake now. but actually i usually only sleep ard this time lar... i think cg is really precious. really really impt and vital to me always.

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

tian xia wu bu san zi yan xi

what a way to end the year. today is the last day of real scheduled lectures for the m2s. some people brought cameras to capture memories with their lecture 'cliques'. actually i wanted to bring too, but didn't remember lar... anyway the pple who've gone through thick and thin with me, through the many BORING and senseless lecturers; the 3-gazillion-slide-lecture-w/o-lecture-notes lecture... yep, a big thank you and a warm hug for all the company and joy u've brought into my life.

i decided for a change of lecture environment early in this academic year, and i think by far it was a good decision. sometimes they say the way to getting closer is by drifting apart. rather paradoxical at first glance. but on hindsight prehaps it's true to some extent. there've been times when i've looked back and regretted my decision (i.e. times when i was lonely) but it has nevertheless been fulfilling to make new friends tt i'ld, too, treasure for life.

and hopefully this same principle will apply in the coming academic year too when i'll see so much less of friends who really matter much.

anyway, the last lectures of the year were quite memorable. for patho lecture, the lee yock sun flashed a slide filled with pink dots supposedly to feature the small cells in some dz...

lys:"can u'll see how blue it is?"
us:"HAR?!? *it's all pink*"
lys:"aiyar, use abit of imagination. IMAGINATION."
us: o_O

he then went on to use the same 'imagination' principle to illustrate to us 'clearly visible' "drumsticks" et al. which really required the very last drop of imagination from us to visualise.

not to mention the notes they uploaded on ivle was totally off. those poor souls who printed the notes from online found tt they didn't follow the lecture course at all. which is rather disturbing, cause it ended up being one of those 3-gazillion-slide-lecture-w/o-lecture-notes lecture. sijin was kbing on and on. i was 'fortunate' enough to be unable to access ivle thus bringing the old thick stack of patho notes swiped from the dental students instead. and surprise surprise, they followed at lecture more closely. yay! but still when lys got onto the types of chondromas and osteomas when i found myself, too, copying for my dear life.

haha.

anyway i'm typing this from the lib when i just studied cofm. can't figure out some parts of it still, esp the parts lectured by the taxi driver a/prof (cks). no offence to any taxi drivers, but this A/PROF really looks like a taxi driver >>>>>> a/prof! anyway he brings back some bad memories of teachers. somehow these type of teachers are the type who terrify me and i always don't do well in their subjects. nono, not the look. i mean his style of teaching and all tt. i remember i attended the taxi driver's tutorial and i was really damn scared lar.

yar. i met xtine, wes and shermin on the way to lib after lunch and xtine was just commenting on how fast this yr seeemed to have flown by. yeah, it's so true. some to think of it, HOW did the yr go by so fast?? i can recall much more tt happened in m1 than in m2. simply slipped right under my nose. we reached the conclusion tt it was probably the insane mugging for fortnightly CAs last yr which seemed to drag time on forever. yeah maybe. well, something tt a senior of mine said to me before i entered med sch seemed to be all so true now - yr1 will be the worst, yr2 will be a breeze cf to yr1. u'll enter yr3 soon and before u know it u'll find urself graduating. yeah really, i'm feeling it in my bones too tt in a twinkling of an eye we'll all be graduating liao.

hang on to ur dreams and ur memories and let the wind carry us high.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

ying yi wei rong

what a long day at school today... FOUR whole hours of cofm tutorial followed by another 2 hrs of patho tutorial. wah. my brain is dead. then went down to the lib and to my horror i found tt the lib was FULLY packed... i mean, there were just isolated pockets of seats around. couldn't have been more than 10 seats in the entire med lib. eventually found a cubicle (reminds me of toliet) and plopped down to do genetics.

well, it was quite fruitful. :)

heard a very distressing piece of news today from the horse's mouth. haha.i shall not do him the liberty of spreading news ard. :P

yesterday i did the most satisfying thing in a looong time. which is to pack my room. if i could i would post up pics of before and after. but i didn't take pictures of the before. but yes, it's so neat now and so dust free. makes me want to come back home more often. haha. cleaned my glass table and there was SO MUCH dust. i think i can see clearer what's under the top now after i've cleaned it. packed some of my notes (from last term) too. organised them into neat little files. :) haha.

i could really SMELL the difference in my room when i came back today. not tt it stinked, but there was a fresh smell. oh yar, i also threw out 4 dustbins full of old phamplets/notes/rubbish.

and put up a treasured photo up on the wall too. :) haha.

just finished a game of wc3, finally won. really looked as if we were losing liao, but then all of a sudden pushed all the way back and wack diao all their barracks. subsequently we won. yay! it really looked quite bad when void(me) and sa couldn't coordinate the ts and ward. but eventually tt didn't matter liao. cause it was just raw dmg tt smashed the scrouge base. :)

tml don't have to go sch! but i think i'll be sleeping soon. this thurs-sat is KCM in indoor stadium. initially didn't feel like going, but maybe i'll turn up for 1 of the sessions afterall. fri's cg.

Sunday, February 20, 2005

of pans, bowls, plates and POTS

hey fellow medcine yr2 muggers. saw this on jenming's blog and thought it might be useful. pots with pictures and associated questions. click here to mug now! :)

whadda u know

i was awaken this morning by my dad (who went out a bought home bfast). and he told me he thought abt it and think it's alright to dye my hair afterall. reason being tt i'm 21 liao this year. adult liao.

haha, i love growing up. :)

life w/o colour

oh man. it's another day when i try to study but didn't manage to cover much. today there was supposed to have campus. but didn't go cause i remembered i had reunion dinner with the scouts alumni.

it was only when i checked with shuwei if it was at RI just before i left did i find out tt to my horror it was next month.

march 19th, not feb 19th.

came home instead and had a rest. played some dota. watched some tv. today there's chingay.

then i brought up the issue of me wanting to dye my hair to my dad. i never saw it coming but he quite violently protested against me doing it. and his reasons being tt it doesn't look good, very punk. and don't want me to waste money. paraphrased, it would go, "u so much money go and pay your phone bills lar!"

well, not tt my phone bills are extrodinarily high. they're quite normal actually. but yar, a whole host of other things also came out, everything about diving, doing this, doing that.

*sigh*

even ask me is it cause i hang out with friends then get influenced to dye hair. yadayadayada... nagnagnag... haiyar. i got nothing to say lar, and didn't want to quarrel.

actually this is something i learnt some time ago, tt whenever u're about to get angry, ask yourself if your relationship with the person is worth > the issue. if it is, cool down and forget about it! yar, it has helped me get over many disagreements with my family and friends thus far. so, this was the case again today too.

well, why would i want to dye my hair? honestly it's also cause i want to try it out. haha. think it'll be a novel experience. i probably won't be able to do it EVER again in the future. not a chance esp when i've started working.

and really tt's the main reason. and i must say tt this isn't really a very substantial one. which makes it much easier for me to give up my 'dream'. yar. maybe it IS something i can do w/o. an experience i can do w/o.

i admit i was quite disappointed and irritated when my dad said no. come to think of it, i was really telling him just in passing. cause i quite made up my mind to dye liao. didn't know he would object. dad's really very sui(2) bian(4) one and gives me alot of autonomy. so it came as a surprise to me tt he had such a strong opinion on the issue.

i think i'll get over the disappointment soon enough. yet secretly hope tt he'll change his mind. haha. probably won't be doing it w/o his approval and to me tt's not being hum(3) ji(4), cause my dad has added more than colour to my life! :) haha.

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today is another special day. HALI.A. *grin*

Thursday, February 17, 2005

wing-ging the wong number

hmmm, interesting. who would have thought tt the wong brothers would have caused so much turmoil. yar, as qk pointed out, it actually pointed to some a&f libel case which cause the company some US$40 million.

read the story here.

today was an okay day lar. skipped bs, which on hindsight was a very bad idea. didn't manage to study much too and i'm really ultra disappointed... i was studying with X in lib today and it was scary man... he was like asking me this and that. and i really cannot recall... "very impt leh, they always ask one..." haiyoh. and the thing is tt i just studied the set of notes yesterday. very sianz. i was very very depressed. not blaming X anyway. i mean, i'm sure no malice was meant. haha. aiyoh, someday must cast out tt muggish spirit out of X... not edifying. in fact as i was leaving the lib, X called out after me, "how, still got so much cofm... don't know how to study. oh yes, and there's pots too..." SIANZ. pots.

there was a career seminar today. something tot he tune of "what's going to happen after mbbs." yar. i think it was excellent. very insightful and interesting lecture. nice refreshments too, which really served as dinner since the seminar ended at 5 plus. well, the only regret was eating too much at the reception, tt made me fall asleep later as i was trying to study later. and when i woke up i was in this most irritable mood in a long time... argh. u can just imagine.

JESUS ARR QUICKLY COME BACK CAN?? THEN I DON'T NEED TO STUDY LIAO... haha. :)

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

when i passed the toliet today i saw a guy with an interesting t shirt which read:

WONG BROTHERS LAUNDRY SERVICE
2 WONGS WILL MAKE IT WHITE!

oh man. how lame can we get...

but yeah, i think such tees are excellent. haha.

Monday, February 14, 2005

valentine 2005

it has been a wonderful day. :) the best valentines ever since. this day i'll forever remember, 140205. :)

*it's not a bgr. 140205 is a day for friends too. :)

what a memorable day - well spent, throughly enjoyed

this long weekend has been one of exploration and self discovery for me. to learn about myself anew, and to receive fresh revelations and promptings on my course in life. confirmations too. but what seems to be lacking is the courage and conviction to execute them.

there were certain disappointments again, but the joy tt i got from godly fellowship was more than enough to prop me up again. sometimes i wonder what's so hard to give up? when i've received so much.

p was telling me i should surround myself with more godly fellowship. i think so too. it's not a psychology thing, neither is it being elitist nor being anti-social nor 'inbreeding'. cause i realise i need the support, if not there may well be a day when i'ld lose it all.

today was a well spent day. met p and junrong to buy valentines' day presents for the cg girls. haha, think it's quite meaningful. total got 7 girls. we bought them each a rose and a handphone chain (those type attach to handphone like an accessory) at bugis. well, we had some food before that at mos burger. wah, the butterfly prawns are fabulous. searching for the presents was quite an adventure, but still settled on making the handphone chains. each of us made for some girls. i made the keychains for amanda/ting/laura. the rest of the girls the other 2 guys made lor. anyway we were really hoping more guys could come down but some (wenshen) went to bai nian, and some (devin) was serving in children's church. alex was uncontactable whilst terry had papers on mon. all the best for ur papers bro. :)

supper was very meaningful too. i really saw how much love each had for the other. there was no masks and no awkwardness. just frank, conversations filled with love for each other. like how we ordered food from all over and shared with each other; how when each dish came pple would automatically offer to pay for it (one dish after another dish); how guys help the girls jia(2) cai(4) and take order for drinks from everyone at the table. the fellowship was precious.

the laughter, the smiles. the suanning, the conversations.

we lou(1) hei(2)-ed too today. right in a hawker centre (lavender food sq) and although the place was noisy enough, we still enjoyed ourselves very much and made enough noise and laughed loudly enough to attract attentions from tables around us. the blessings tt each of us said as we went round the table put extra special meaning to the session too.

today, i had my fill. in more ways than one indeed. it has been a day tt'll always be treasured. afterall, this is family. this is where i belong.

Saturday, February 12, 2005

comfort over coffee

just came back from 'supper' with han, p, eugene and zw. well, it was originally a coffee break at 9pm, but we actually shared and fellowshiped all the way until about 12. yup, it was quite enjoyable. went to this coffee place at cine, 2nd floor.

something p told me on a previous occasion seemed all so true to me - tt i've got too little company of brothers and sisters (in christ). i think tt's probably something tt's causing me much problems. having godly companions help you to live a life tt's christ centered. tt's a life tt i'ld call undiluted.

just like how christians are encouraged to marry within their faith. cause it'll "save alot of heartache", quote andy.

but i'ld suppose it's the encouragement and mentality checks, fellowship and sharing tt's really so remarkable and precious. both shoulders to cry on, both arms to comfort, both ears to listen, a heart to love, and person to rejoice with. yup. it's really what i want. and tt's what's given to me when i was in my saddest moments... these are my 'church friends'.

i remember previously, i didn't like the idea of 'inbreeding'. but more and more each day i think the way to go is to SURROUND myself with godly fellowship. i've been hurt too many times liao lar, and every single time i'ld run back to 'church friends'.

ok, anyway, a take home message for me was a quote, "if i lived 25 yrs, i would want to spent my first 20 yrs in preparation." well, this will be my life. as pointed out just now, jesus spent 30 years in preparation for his 3.5 yrs of ministry too mar.

but in no way am i trying to imply superiority to my friends who're non-believers. i really love them alot too, but it's just different. hope they wouldn't feel insulted. i think, something like what zj's been doing. i used to think it's not a good testimony for him to be so recluse, but i think maybe tt's how it should be. only difference is tt it should be a whole group of us together. which is like our cg grouping, me, kim and zj. whoah, i'm starting o feel excited. :)

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by a stroke of 'luck' i found tt i got "you gave" album w/o buying it. apparently my brother's teacher attends ncc too (in fact i met her once last time) and she handed my brother the cd to listen to. and i only found out today tt she has been handing my brother sermon cds too! i mean, i'm quite shocked. pleasantly surprised actually. i think it's impt for alex to know abt grace.

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oh yes, forgot to mention, my new phone is TOTALLY paid for by my dad. yay. i was saving up for the phone till today, scrimping on this and tt. haha, like on meals in sch etc. i've never really saved for anything, usually is spend first, consequences later. but this round i wanted to save every single $ to pay for my own phone. but my dad told me to keep my card, and insisted tt he pay for it. yippee. thanks dad. whee~~

Friday, February 11, 2005


this is my new phone! :) ok, maybe it's a picture of a model of my new phone. ok, u get the idea. whee~~ Posted by Hello

new phone

yay bought a new phone today. it's a nokia 6170. :) quite happy with it. yay. actually i've been wanting to buy a new phone for quite long liao ever since my t610 got dumped into the sea. yup, and i've ben saving up all the while since then so i can pay for the phone myself. :)

my dad accompanied me down to buy the phone. though it was like forever before it was our turn to be served, we still made our buy quickly. a hiccup was tt we wanted to trade in the t610, but they rejected it, well cause something was seriously wrong and the phone cannot even be turned on. sian.

but yay. finally a new phone. haha. actually i picked this model cause it looks (to me) more suitable for work use next time. yup. :) although this is the first time i'm using a flip phone, i think it shouldn't be too hard to use lar. :) hope not.

lemme go explore the functions...

-notes

i realise tt the ans to homosexuality is quite simple. was reading the ref tt sw sent me and was crossed ref to leviticus 18:22 - which states explicitly tt homosexuality is wrong.

oh yes, and the ref for marrying within our tribe is 1 kings 11:2. the whole chapter really.

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later supposed to go hyq's place. sadly, i realised i won't be going cause have to go visiting later too. hope the guys enjoy themselves. anyway, just now when i called hyq to tell her i won't be going, she went in her most festive voice, "hello, wesley arr??!!". haha. wonders what a phone line can do to your voice.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

man's best friend

just came back from gan's place. met up with him and junrong. originally we were supposed to go bugis, but last min changed plans cause gan was thinking probably most of the shops there would be closed. yar, quite quick thinking. if not we may end up with nothing to do at all. haha.

met gan's dog for the first time. i mean... i never knew he had a dog. aiyar, never hear him talk abt it leh, and i've never been at his basement(porch) where the dog is kept. in fact, he's had the dog for five years liao. amazing.

yup, i think the dog likes me very much. maybe it's because i mei li wu fa dang. but then again, maybe cause i was holding on to the ball and threw it for it to fetch. haha. arh. but i forgot it's name (as i'm trying to recall it now).

i always thought i'm more of a cat person. dogs are big and smelly but adorable and cuddly. cats tend to be neater and cleaner but always give me the impression tt they're very purposeful/scheming animals. haha, and today's encounter with gan's dog certainly proved the pt tt dogs ARE smelly. it was breathing out so much foul gas lar. haiyoh. the typical dog smell.

not to mention it's drool (which is lavished over the ball). eeks. but i'ld think i like dogs more. i'ld get one next time i guess. whee~~ anyway, there was once when i threw the ball for the dog to catch and it chased after all. because it's a small yellow ball, the dog didn't see it carefully and actually let the ball roll between it's legs. it thought the ball was still in front and continued running ahead. haha. what a funny sight.

oh yes now i remember. it's name is "nasher".

gan's mum is a very good host. :) she went to prepare some french fries for us. and pour this drink pour tt drink for us. haha so hospitable.

later watching seoul raiders with them at ps. maybe study a bit now first lar.

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

reunion dinner was great. went over to da(4) yi(2)'s place for steamboat dinner. and it has our 2 families having reunion dinner for quite some times liao. it's really nice for my aunt to invite us over every year.

well, it's just a while more before the 'new year' comes. been watching tv the whole day round ever since i cam home from school - there was this majong show featuring andy lau. quite nice lar. then now watching rat race. haha.

yup, valentines day is coming up really soon. yuan(4) you(3) qing(2) ren(2) zhong(1) chen(2) juan(4) shu(3). haha. yup, and those who already have tt special someone, may every day be a valentines day for u'll. :)

but meanwhile, XING NIAN KUAI LE, WAN SHI RU YI!

藉口

翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现
去年的冬天 我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸 对着我说再见
来不及听见 你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我 也许已经很难回头
我知道自己错过 请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我

就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果 我也能够随
我知道你的痛 是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容 沉默是因为包容
如果要走 请你记得我

如果难过 请你忘了我

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oh man, i was just browsing around my favourites folder and found a link which has all of the lyrics of jielun's songs in chinese. haha, something tt i've not touched for some time. anyway in the times when i'm sad, tt's roughly how i feel. oh shucks. but painful painful also just transient. but yeah, i felt really lousy this afternoon as i was mugging. tried praying in tongues, felt a bit better. didn't bring bible anyway so couldn't read. i mean also, afterall, xing(1) shi(4) also can tell tt many pple. even so, some pple i wanted to share my xing(1) shen(1) to weren't around too. very sad.

something i realised yesterday night after talking on the phone - it's funny how i felt so sad on sun, and how sometimes feelings may be the things which make pple fall. i was feeling a bit down today when i was mugging in the library with devin today. well, stayed till after dinner only when i bua(3) da(2) han(3) and went home. yup, i was just telling him how i was feeling and tt super nice guy really showered his c&c. haha, i'm so touched man. thanks. :)

anyway, as i was lying on my bed yesterday night waiting to fall asleep, i was thinking about how things should be before 2 pple become an item. i was just reminded again tt both should be whole. both should not have any outstanding issues, and exist as 2 complete wholes. well, before they both come and offer each other whatever they have to offer. don't come to each other with emptiness in the heart, hoping tt the new found relationship would help fill the cavity. tt's wrong.

for one, i know i'm not secure enough. amongst many other flaws. i promise i'll work on them first before anything. both have to be complete in christ. :) yeah, what a close shave, i nearly screwed things up.

tml's (or rather today since it's past 12 now) is cny eve. yay i'm so happy. going over to da(4) yi(2)'s place for reunion dinner. my family always join them for reunion dinner every year, esp when we live so near each other. and always we'll have steamboat and there'll be SO much food tt we'll all have problem finishing up. haha, such wonderful hospitality from my aunt. :P

nitey world. tml will be a bright and cheerful day full of favour and grace. :)

Monday, February 07, 2005

munchies for a pleasant afternoon

here am i again in the library wasting the afternoon away. haha. just came back from a break to nuh in a valient quest for food. it's quite funny cause i was happily studying away in the library, when wl came along and guess what, she brought chicken pasta from "coffee grounds". i mean... it's super nice smell lar!!! activated my salivatory centres and indeed, it was getting hard to study there with the wafts of chicken mushroom sauce finding their way into my olfactory centres.

so, when i did the last of ovarian neoplasms i decided to trot down to nuh for a snack. i originally had a piece of water chestnut kueh.

pls pple, DON'T try it. it's quite horrible. not much water chestnut taste, somemore had a weird taste. bleh. but how could i give up on my food hunt if i didn't find something delicious??? if i had returned prematurely to the library it was only going to be torture whenever i smelled the wonderful chicken pasta.

haha. so i decided to go 7-11 and tried the mash potatoes for the 1st time, and indeed as jb said, it is quite delicious. but i thought the machine should have given me more chicken sauce lar. anyway, it's a cheap snack ($1) which satisfied the hunger, after which i went back to lib to continue mugging. *smacks lips*

but lo and behold, when i sat down, there was no drive to mug for i was facing the mind boggling "helmiths and nematodes" notes. argh. hearing from devin tt it would take eternity to run through them gave me all the courage i needed. therefore here am i blogging the afternoon away. :)

oh, i think aileen wee is wonderful. haha. i'll vote her for teaching award. :)

Sunday, February 06, 2005

blogthings

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memorable weekend

oh man, today started off quite badly. was in a bad mood, because of so many issues bothering me, looming at the back of my mind.

well, firstly it's CAs. which are coming up real soon. i don't feel like studying, yet i know tt i'll never be able to finish. it's really crazy. i'm not even studying now, and yet still blogging. just now was surfing around on the net, just basically wasting time. but i don't want to study. sianz.

well, a couple of other issues also, like something tt happened on fri before cg, which just triggered off a whole chain of thoughts in my mind. haiyoh, i don't know what to make out of it lar.

then of course, there's feeling of loneliness once in a while too.

gan's leaving for australia this sat too. it's really sad and i'll miss him very much. but for your dream of being a doctor, all the best bro! :) hope we'll keep in touch.

and also cause gan's leaving so soon, we went out for supper yesterday night. and stayed till quite late. got home only at 0230, slept at 0300++. quite bad, today woke up only at noon. then the pimples started getting worse, and the cream i got from yih makes the skin very dry. peeling and quite unsightly. haha. so vain right? actually, don't know why i'm so bothered also lar. i'll try not to be. we went to clementi al-azhar, and had banana prata and teh tarik. haha, quite scrumptous.

individually the issues are not much lar. but when all of them come together as a flood, it's hard for me to stay afloat. therefore i felt down. shi(2) mian(4) mai(2) fu(2) liddat. haha.

but anyway after service today, which had a superb p&w, i was very much more encouraged and felt much much better. praise god.

oh, on fri i also went to the fair outside science foyer and bought a fashion accessory. yup, it's this shiny grey-silver ring tt i think is just so totally cool. haha, now just to see if i'll have the guts to wear. maybe when i go out with the guys lar. well, i got home and tried to put it on my right thumb. i had a super hard time trying to get the ring in, but finally managed to. then disaster struck.

it was STUCK! i mean, CANNOT take out lorh. i almost gave up and wanted to just sleep with the ring on, then tml can try to take out. but i decided to give it once last shot and after an agonising struggle it finally came out. now, nowhere are u going ever to see tt ring on my right thumb.

haha, anyway i see this accessorising thing as just part of growing up lar. maybe it wouldn't even catch up for me cause actually, i'm really very old liao lar. but besides the fact tt i'm a rather impulsive buyer, the other more substantial reason is cause i decided tt such a ring would serve to remind me of promises tt i've made to myself. and others of course. yep, not just a blind accessory.

yesterday night was server's night, which was held at safra mt faber. yep, the new place. frankly, i think it's quite ugly. well, at least the color coordination. oh well. but server's night was SUPERB. we learnt the dance tt was featured in the movie "kung fu hustle". haha, it was simply hillarious. the dance is actually very simple, 4 basic movements only. but as usual for this type of thing, the person who is the most bu(4) yao(4) lian(3) one does it the best. of course, i was terrible at the dance.

the food was really good, with things like breaded mango-scallop (ie. whole, fresh scallop with real slices of mango all breaded together in a fillet), cereal prawns etcetc. and for desert there was orh(3) ni(2). one of the best i've eaten too i must say. this one had bits of water chestnut in them... aiyoh, liu(2) kou(2) shui(3) liao...

more notable was the worship before/after dinner. simply fabulous. i'm really honoured to serve. what a privilage.

i think i like my new hairstyle, though not many pple told me tt they like it too. haha. yar, pple like zy, amanda, john, freddy. anyway don't have to comb liao, which i'm glad for. i'll try to make the gelling more obvious, something which alot of pple said wasn't obvious. well, actually they were telling me on fri to go and gel my hair. but then i did!!! only tt i used matt gel, which doesn't shine lar. so doesn't seem tt it's gelled.

anyway. :)

today started off not so good, but the day's getting better. maybe i will go study at least 1 set of notes later. some tv first maybe.

darn. nothing to read online.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

gorgeous!

went to cut my hair at this salon (gorgeous) at far east. yep, 1st time there, and today i went to cut hair instead of going for pbl... haha. who says pbl is pao(3) bu(4) liao(3)??

yar, it was quite an experience and i felt SO pampered lorh!!! it's standard shampoo/blowdry/cut/wash/blowdry, but it was different. firstly, the shampooing is shiok! i mean, i can totally understand how the loreal model felt lar! haha, in fact, i was trying so hard not to grin but in the end cannot tahan because the shampooer was really damn skilled lar. haha, it's really sensual and super relaxing. haha. *rolls eyes* and the shiok shampooing continued for a at least a good 5 minutes. i mean, it's simply indescribable. oh yeah baby. yar, the shampooing was done while i was sitting up, with the mirror in front of me, so i think every smile tt broke through my lips was observed by the shampooer, who most probably laughed to herself. (i mean, i don't have my specs on so can't see larh)

i was then brought to the back to wash off the shampoo in a standard basin. when they were washing the shampoo off the shampooer even asked, "is the temperature of the water ok?" wah. i was like, "errr yar?" i wasn't even expecting them to ask, like they did in pointers (which is just 1 floor up).

it was also very nice to be offered a warm cut of good tea the moment i sat down. the tea was very refreshing. not too thin, not too thick. then the nice lady brought me a whole pile of magazines to browse through while waiting for the stylist. haha, it was quite interesting to look and see what are the more fashionable hairstyles in japan now (the magazines are all in japanese) and they like totally take care of your every need.

haha. my hairstylist was super nice also, striked up a conversation with me. this guy called tony. haha, interesting orange frame specs. next time i go back i think i'll go and find him to cut again. yeah, i'm quite impressed with the service i'll go cut my hair there everytime now! haha.

well of course, such things come with a price. it set me back by $30 for everything. haha, a bit expensive lar, but i'm a person who wouldn't mind paying for tt extra something, and in a haircut, tt's what i'm looking for. a bit more exp than freddy's, a bit cheaper than j's. haha.

omg, i felt so pampered. when i told kim at bs today, she said with a smirk, "now you know why girls like to go spa." har? no connection lar. oh yes, bs today was great. i mean, really really good. pastor joshua was preaching and this man has really got a unique ministry, independent of pastor prince. nope, not in the shadow. i'm really glad i went today.

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

great links

oh man, tml starts at 8am again... and i still have pbl after everything ends. haiyoh. actually i'm really thinking of skipping, but after what happened to qich i think i'll reconsider. gotta sleep soon man if not tml cannot wake up liao.

was talking to lh just now over the phone, and habben had such a heart-to-heart talk with anyone for such a long time liao. haiyoh, he seems to be kun(4) nan(2) chong(2) chong(2)... i hope tt things will look up for him in the near future. but yeah, it was a looong talk.

a couple of funny links i got today, one from qy abt dota leavers here; other one's a very cute documentary from qk, about this penguin, which is here. be sure to turn up your speakers if u're viewing the 2nd link.

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

[zai(4) ye(3) bu(4)] xiang(3) hui(2) dao(4) guo(4) qu(4)

i'm really feeling quietly happy now. recently i found a new source of joy, this blog tt just exudes joy and hope, things tt i've not seem for some time. yup, it does make me happy, and brings back this warm fuzzy feeling in me again. :) and it's a blog of someone who i don't even know. haha, just chanced upon it. this blog's something tt i look forward to reading everyday cause it shows me the meaning of true friendship and warm fuzzy love, what it means to not have a care for tml and to live life free in the companion of a group of special friends coupled with special moments with tt special someone.

maybe a glimpse of how things would have turned out to be if i didn't screw things up, learnt to appreciated u more, learnt not to hold on to u so tight. haha. yup. anyway just learn from mistakes and move on. well, regrets are only for a moment. hehe, i think it's the plain silly type of joy tt i'm experiencing now.

life is bound to be filled with joy, sorrows, new friendships forged and relationships broken. friends are really impt pple to have by your side especially in times of need, to tong(2) gan(1) gong(4) ku(3). they are the ones who'll prop u up and lend u a shoulder to rest on when u're tired. i should try to make a list of how many such friends i have. haha. maybe later. :) thanks to all u for being there.

recalling, last yr was really a time of 1000x more. 1000x real undiluted joy; and also 1000x real undiluted pain. but i'm glad it's all over. as u told me last time, we should learn to put such things in the past, but not forget them. "the times we had i'll always treasure", you said, but i found it too hard to swallow and just couldn't accept the fact tt it was really over. but now i understand, i really understand why things cannot be what i want. and u were the one who had the clearer state of mind to make the right decision. now just like u, i'll commit these wonderful times we had together into everlasting memories. and we should leave it at tt cause it's really best for us both.

move on, hope, move on. i'm glad u learnt how to let go today. don't let the past rule your life. here's wishing the both of us a brilliant future ahead.

*yawn*

*burp* it's the post lunch period of time now and i'm typing this entry from the com cluster in the library, hogging on the comps so some poor soul who has to do pbl has no comp to use. well, pple like john, and this poor guy wearing a nice blue shirt who just walked out dejectedly, unable to secure a terminal.

muahaha. ( by this paragraph i've realised tt it's very hard to type on this keyboard and i've to be concious of what keys i'm pressing...) well, the real reason i'm here now is because i'm really very VERY tired. school started at EIGHT this morning, something tt has not happened since who-knows-when. after the glorious start of the day we had FOUR HOURS of back-to-back lectures. tired + cannot study = come online to blog... anyway this comnig thurs also starts at 8.00am. argh.

i've taken to studying in school with the caregroup, i think a change of env is warrented, and it goes in line with my new resolution. but this doesn't mean tt i have to compromise on other friends, although it will definitely mean less time spent with them. well, it may be a good thing afterall.

yesterday i officially finished the last of the pineapple tarts tt i bought from the soma pineapple tart bakers. haha, i think they're really very nice!!! good job guys. and all in the name of charity too... what better way can there be to do charity? i was reading hl's blog some time ago, which accounted a bit of the baking saga and how pple like jy always "wanted to go home" and how ren(2) ci(2) c could be. haha, i would think this is part of the reward tt the bakers got, making of new friends and a time always to remember. actually... why not the bakers have another pineapple tart sale? i'll definitely buy more this time. yummy. :P

in lecture this morning i realised tt today is... the feb 1st! a start of a new month, 8 more days to cny and all the yummy goodies tt it brings, and of course, 5 more wks or so to CA. haha. i've a sneaky suspicion tt i'm not on course for studies, but tt's not goign to get me worried.

i think i experienced another emotional roller coaster today just after lecture ended. there was so much temptation to just go bonkers but i'm glad tt was not what happened. i'm really REALLY glad. :) haha. it's all over man. one day i'll just wake up as if nothing ever happened. *grin*

oh yesterday i went to yih to see doctor for my acne problem, he gave me oral tetracycline and erythromycin/benzoylperoxide topical. hehe, on top of tt i'm taking communion everytime i wash my face now (advice confirmed by devin. n/b: devin has probably one of the best skin amongst all the guys), and positive confession of qk's mantra. haha. hope hopes it clears up soon. :) if not cannot eat all the nutty goodies during cny, and tt is HOW SAD?!?!?!?! i think i'll feng(1) diao(4).

ok going to try to mug liao. this entry actually took me abt 30mins to type, which should be enough relaxation time lar. haha.