music to my ears

added some music to the blog thanks to the link on ashley's blog. :)

think it should be safe from popups and spyware cause it's actually from someone's webpage, not those irritating corporate money making dot.com companies.

music to mine. urs?

whee~~

my brother came back today from oxford. hehe missed his presence ard the house for the past 2 weeks. irritating sometimes, but nonetheless a necessary evil. :) his trip there was actually quite drama cause he lost his wallet during a outing at the ice-skating rink. quite alot of $ lost which upseted us back at singapore a bit for a while. but anyway he still managed to scrimp his way through with a couple of pounds to spare at the end of the day.

after we fetched him from the airport in the morning, my dad and i took a short road trip to malacca. hehe, quite happy cause never had a chance to go malacca; never went overseas with my dad before. didn't spend much time there though, i think the driving there was more of an episode than the touring around there. did see a few of the old portuguese buildings, took a few photos, but dut to the tight schedule we had to race through the few attractions tt we visited. snapped a few pictures in the car as we passed them though.

well, what do u expect for a road trip which had to be completed in a day? :)

and i drove there and back! haha, what an experience. the n-s highway just screams, "fasterfaster!" and so i did. tested the max speed of the car, which is a meagre 157 km/h. can't seem to go beyond tt magical number no matter how i depress the accelerator. but anyway it's quite scary to go at tt speed cause it's quite fast. well, the only consolation is tt everyone else around u is travelling at ard 130-140 km/h. yes, even the big trailers at 110-120 km/h. well, depends on how u see it really. u could consider tt nerve-wrecking. so from malacca to jb it took me abt 90 mins. ave speed's abt 137 km/h. whoah. i just did the math and i'm shocked myself too (if u are tt is).
 
we stopped over at jb and bought some supper for the family at home - stingray, herbal chicken, and durians. there're RM3 per kilo lar. how to fang(4) guo(4)... wack 6 of them back. anyway quite full now. gotta sleep. haha pig...

enjoyed the little outing with my dad, both of us making the wrong turns, getting lost, eating good food (chicken rice balls in malacca for lunch), afternoon of shopping. think should try to make it a pt to go out with my family more often.

farewell

alright, finished my attachment at sembawang camp liao, said my farewells and all tt. got the pple at camp some tau sar piah from balestier (the buying of the tau sar piah is in itself drama). it's really been a very enriching experience these 2 months over there, and i've learnt alot about the navy medical service, the people there, work structure and flow, at the same time learnt to write papers and design research studies.

got to know many terrific individuals too like daniel (my boss), boon hor (very shuai mo who's getting married next year liao; same church, took real good care of me), chris (who is a super fitness guy who trashes my 10km timing) jonathon (who's really friendly, whom i can talk to frankly as a friend), eric (a really street-wise guy offering me great hospitality and who has a impressive work attitude), and CNMO who took real care of me and made sure i was comfortable and enjoyed my attachment there.

nice pple, nice enviroment. right now i'm considering going back to navy after i graduate.

boon hor brought me to do a chamber/dry dive today. and we actually went down to 50m!!! bottom time was 10 mins. i did the dive with 5 other medics, squeezing into the small chamber... and at 50m we ALL suffered from nitrogen narcosis and were laughing uncontrollably for some time.

SERIOUSLY.

it was really an experience to get 'narced'. now, we were actually supposed to take pulse and bp when we were at 50m, but because the stethoscope was spoilt we were unable to take bp. all of us took pulse, but most of us were laughing out loud when we took pulse. really after abt 5 mins i managed to get a hold on myself, took my pulse and observed the other medics.

wah i tell u, they were just clowning around and laughing ard. but we all managed to take our pulse after a couple of reminders from each other.

1 thing worth noting was tt all of us sounded just like when u just breathed in helium. all of us sounded like donald duck... which is actually the reason why we started laughing... we were actually all ok as we descended till 50m, until we opened our mouths and realised tt we all sounded like dear donald.

WAHAHAHA...

another thing worth noting also is tt the chamber was SUPER HOT as we descended. maybe it had something to do with the increased heat conductivity as the density of the air increased to 5 times normal. sweating like in a sauna... but as we ascended at the end of the dive, the cooling effect was amazing. very shiok.

but anyway it was really an experience to remember. did it w/o medical clearance, which is actually not allowed. (muahaha) well, boon hor's the boss at chamber, so we bended the rules a little. thankful for the chance to use the chambers.

in the afternoon all the MOs and me and some of the senior medics went to nee soon to attend a research seminar given by a COFM A/Prof. haha, i conveniently forgot her name liao... but anyway, the lecture was some CME thingy, which explains for the enthusiastic participation in attendence; though i must say tt 1/2 the pple attending were sleeping as the lecture was going on. it was on epidemiological studies and how to process info from your surveys, plan your studies etc. very statistics - which i incidently don't have an interest for.

met andy (who is a VERY eligible bachelor) at the seminar. haven't seen him for some time and chatted with him for a while before going to the library to look for kenny. played a couple of rounds of gunbound with him of which i lost all the matches. got trashed hands down.

great day, better days ahead. :) cheers!

update

did a bit of updating on the links when i realised tt half of them were linking to oblivion and the other half wern't really relevant. found some interesting new links on my fav folder and added them too.

and there's the tribute to the brave soul who was defending his home.

wed's (incidentaly tml) the last day of work. hooray. got to shower now, pop by yishun to meet gan later.

Quizzzzes

here's more of those quizilla thingys. oh yes, U2's having sale. 30% off. wonderful. *smirkes* hmmm, haven't seen gan in a long time liao, going shopping with him on tues and also to catch up.

oh yes, yesterday after cg met up with the scouts. we went to sing kbox at suntec. wah... very fun to see pple let down their hair and just enjoy themselves. haven't seen cy and rt for a WHOLE YEAR liao. yepyep, enjoyed myself really much, but everyone was really tired at the end of it cause we left the room at 2 plus. hehe. suntec was like a ghost town. sang for abt 5 hrs i all.

following which, rt sent me home in his dad's car. he's only driving on singapore roads for the 3rd time. nonetheless it was fair driving. i think my driving was worse than his at my 5th time on the roads.

it's amazing the lvl of patience and tolerance and respect tt rt has for his dad. oh yes, his dad was sitting in the car telling him this and tt and this and tt and this and tt. i think I would have got annoyed to say the least. but he was calm. tt's why he is and i'm not. haha.

2 more quizzes:


Aphrodite/Eros

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??


Britain

?? Which Country Are You From ??

my reflections

"this above all, to thine ownself be true, and it must follow as night the day, thou canst not be false to any man - polonius"

a friend whom i highly respect gave me this quote just about 1 year back before sch started. reflecting on the year past, i find this to be really very true. most importantly, to be true to the people around u and more importantly youself is probably the most important lesson tt i've learnt.

to not get bothered by other people's opinion of yourself. cuase what's most important is your opinion of yourself after what's God's opinion of yourself. yes, tt's most important. i mean, it's really trying to understand the human psychology and how pple yearn for social acceptance and how the whole matter of 'face' and the desire for respect from others. (which i just realised, may actually be a sideline reason tt i signed on. not a valid reason at all as i reflect on it, but really, it's not anything i can do about now.)

yep, but looking at people around, i find tt many have tt 'yearning' for respect and to put it more bluntly, a false sense of pretence around tt seeks to hide a seemingly inferior aspect of them tt would, in their opinion', serve to tantilate the olfactories of ridicule of their 'peers'. the conclusion tt i reached at this point is tt this is totally rubbish, cause the opinions of others don't matter unless u make them matter. give the paradox some consideration. such oppression comes about only because we ourselves generate it. akin to a catepillar spinning a cacoon. only tt no butterfly comes forth.

living a life based on the opinion of others, trying to make everyone look up to tt empty shell of yours is a sad life. something tt doesn't really fulfill your purpose in life. what's more, it is an oppressing life to live where u have to look out for everything u do, every step u take, merely to sustain tt mirage of a strong and bold person.

it's a real sad sight to see when u look around and find many such people tt arn't really there.

and the worst thing which can happen is when pple choose to maintain tt illusion at the expense of others. indeed a matter of choosing things tt don't matter over things tt do.

i've had the privilage of a handful of pple who've crossed my path of life who've really chose not to be part of this costume-party-of-life. pple who were showing me what life could really be -- a sense of liberation, freedom of expression, and joy in life. pple who were showing it to my eyes tt were wide-shut. pple like cy, rt, lzj (at least).

a life of opression vs tt of liberation. tt's the life tt i think i want to lead. cause i ain't gonna live my life entirely for another. this life's for God and me.  :)

[disclaimer: honestly not directed at particular individuals, just another issue tt i'm trying to sort out with myself and put here for record. :) cheers.]

lor soh

alright! i know this is the 4th post today liao, but just can't help it *grin* as i see more interesting stuff ard on my friends' blogs and as thoughts start floating into my head. don't see how such stuff can tell your personality with 4 or 5 qns, but hey! nice pictures!

(now tt's rather like joey.)


Rainbow

?? Which Natural Wonder Or Disaster Are You ??
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Cocktail

?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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Peace

?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ??
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nice poem

swipped this off my dear sis's blog. *waves* found it really tear-jerking. does tt fleeting period of having someone to love ever compensate for the hurt tt comes after?

i think it does.

i mean, would u go into a relationship if u knew tt it would probably wouldn't last?

maybe not.

well, just different prespectives of the same issue isn't it?


I wonder if you'll think of me
When you sit in the LT and Im not in there

I wonder if you'll think of me
When you have to print your own notes

I wonder if you'll think of me
When you have to remember your own timetable

I wonder if you'll think of me
When you order Chicken Chop at the canteen
That you once had me go to order that for you

I wonder if you'll think of me
When you patronise the Malay stall
How you scolded me for lining up at the Malay stall for ONE drumstick

I wonder if you'll think of me
When you eat
How we sometimes shared food

I wonder if you'll think of me
When you sit at the study benches
When you step into the library
The times I accompanied you before your appointments

I wonder if you'll think of me
When bidding draws near
How you used to psycho me to take the same modules as you
How you used to talk to me on the phone for hours
Thinking about what modules to take

I wonder if you'll think of me
Should you happen to take bus 97 again

I wonder if you'll think of me
When exams come and you forget your seat number
or you just cant be bothered to check

I wonder if you'll think of me
When you take the horrible internal bus
And get bounced up and down the seat

Ah heck
I wonder if you even remember me at all
If you ever saw me as a friend at least
I wonder I wonder I wonder
Im not asking for anything in return
Just reassurance that Im part of your life
So Im waiting for the phone to ring
For your picture to flash on my screen
But it seems like it aint gonna happen
Seems like you've decided to make a clean start
And maybe I should as well...

recent reads

just finished reading this book called "house of God" by samuel shem. wonderful, witty, and genius. definitely a must-read for every medical student. the book narrates the life of an intern with humour yet in a clandestine fashion deals with many issues the intern may face.

sauciness of the author is best represented in the orgy tt's on the intern's mind when he's in the e-room trying to resucitate a dying patient right smack in the first chapter.

amusing read.

now reading "boy meets girl". nice. nice.

loneli

tt's how i'm feeling now. hmmm. actually also very much in the contemplative mood again. work today was really amounted to nothing. an entire afternoon's work gone down the drain of corrupted disk drives and a lousy computer. as a result i'll have to work over the weekend to finish the work by mon.

anyway, only left with 2 days of work, last day will be on tues. unlike my more fortunate counterpart whose last day of work was the friday before medicamp started. some more loose ends to tie up before sch starts...

feel so detetched from everyone... ni(3) men(2) zai(4 ) na(2) ni(3)??

think i need to reorganise some priorities and sort out some thoughts.

oh yes on another sideline - some lsa(med) guy who just completed MOCC actually didn't. if u get what i mean. he finished last in the entire batch with a grand score of 2.5/10 in the feedback. failed the course and got signed off the scholarship by CMC, had to pay back abt 100k. for all u know it's planned. perhaps not. quite yi(4) chou(4) wan(4) nian(2).

the durian disincentive

see, durians are bad. esp when they come cheap and readily. mixed with a series of late nights and viola. pimples.

sigh. have to keep off them for the moment.

heard medicamp was fantastic. was it?

haha.
 
the little saga that's staging on the class yahoogroups is really so amusing lar! though i don't think it's something tt's intentionally put up to revive the dead yahoogroups as tianyazi suggests. it would have been more probable if it was between tianyazi & wm & cg & ncmhp. anyone of them actually, as long as they have the literary genius and love for crapiness. :)
 
oh, i bought durians in m'sia! very nice kampong durians which were going at rock-bottom prices. hehe. paid abt RM 30 for 6 sweet/bitter-sweet durians. shiok! just ate one after lunch and it was fabulous. haha, 5 more to go.
 
i think most didn't know tt i left for a 2nd diving trip last fri save a few. got my advanced diving license now. :) we went a little deeper, abt 110 ft (40m) and saw much more this time. did a night dive too, but had the unfortunate experience of vertigo because of the irresponsible dive leader. must say i didn't enjoy this trip as much as the first. probably put off diving for the next couple of months.
 
some of the aquatic life we saw this round were nice bright-blue starfish, smooth-surfaced cowrie shells, giant clams, lionfish, stonefish, barracudas, sea turtles, and more clownfish and their associated anaemones.
 
there was this clown of a clownfish too which bit me on my forehead. and there was this really loud 'TOK' sound. haha, it really came as a shock. never knew clownfish could be so agressive! but it was more amusing than anything else. think it was because i went to ka-jiao it lar. i also quite naughty go irritate it. went too close also and was fanning water towards its house and creating havoc in its house. :)
 
anyway, i'm home today cause i'm simply too lazy to go work today. negotiated an off today to rest at home with  my boss. really nice people. heard medicamp is on today till thurs? all the best to all going for it and enjoy it! :)

strange dream...
 
weird, dreamt that my back was so bent at a funny angle tt no matter what i did, i still looked like an alien.
 
darn, better make a more concious effort to sit straight.

apologies

this blog is officially dead. at least till school reopens, and only then will i be able to find blogging attractive once again compared against the 'mundaneness' of school life.

right now can't seem to find the time.