ahhh. the o lvl results are coming out tml. talked to a couple of juniors and gave them my well-wishings, and they're supposed to msg me their good results tml.

my friend was telling me about her econs lecturer in another uni who just passed away too. and though she didn't like him and always argued with him, she just felt sad after he received news tt he passed away.

just collapsed at the door and took off.

and in light of a seperate incident where a teacher of rjc also passed away in a mountain biking incident, i can't help but have a few thoughts come to my mind.

life is short. live every moment of it meaningfully. and as i told one of my juniors who was taught by the ex-rjc teacher, "though such things are hard to deal with, they serve as a prompt reminder to wake us up and to remind us to live every moment of our life appreciating the people around us; to live our lives without regrets."

because in our busy lives rushing to and fro, we often neglect the things tt matter the most. things tt are the only matters worth fussing over.

just like an email i read some time ago written by this lady who had cancer and was making a list of things tt she would have done differently if she knew she had cancer earlier. and one on the list was , "i would not have made such a big fuss about winding down the windows in the car on days when the air-conditioning was spoilt just because it would spoil my hair."

priorities are an important part of our lives. set your priorities right. are results the crux of which we revolve around? even small things like getting bothered over the clothes tt we wear to school; or whether which handbag we should pick today; how much gel to use in our hair; how much did we spend on lunch just now, to bigger things like which career path to take; to how badly we did in the pervious CA; whether we're putting on weight.

yes, these deserve some attention nevertheless, but they should never get us too bothered.

instead, spend of ur energy on things tt really matter. stuff like? probably u would know what lies in this category more than anyone else.

go look for your mum/dad right now and give them a big hug and tell them, "i love you." or "thanks for all tt u've done for me.". those words really go a long way. it's definately hard to begin, but as you go along, it gets easier. i myself discovered this some time ago. :)

live a life w/o any regrets. it's hard, but it'll be worth your effort. keep people and things tt matter most close to your heart and never let them go, because u may just find tt u may not get the chance to someday.

to me, friends rank 3rd. family 2nd. God first. simple as tt. all other things can wait.

sigh. feeling really sick now. nose is SO blocked and there's only a little bit of mucus (though thick and viscous) each time i blow my nose. teribble headache too.

sigh. can't study, yet so much to study. yep, typing this from home. skipped school today to rest at home.

here it comes again, gotta go blow my nose. *sniff*

now, i hope tt fixed the happy thuoghts problem. :)

happythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughts

ok enough.

oh well. blogging some random thoughts again today.

u know, feelings arn't there to last unless u choose to dwell on them. it's all really a matter of choice, whether we want to keep thinking of things tt make us feel sad, or we could think of nice and happy things to bring out the optimistic side of life.

and really, it's all a matter of choice.

and tt includes all feelings; be it sadness, joy, jealousy, anger, and even melancholy. all these are subject to our control and whether they persist or not are all determined by you.

if i'm irritated at someone, it's only because i allow tt feeling to grow. (which btw is very bad.) and if i choose to be dwell on happy thoughts, they will follow me all the day! :)

happythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughts happythoughtshappythoughts........................ *grin*

another thing i learnt about feelings recently is tt feelings b/w 2 pple must be mutual for the chemistry to work out. and this does not apply to bgr only, but b/w friends too. and even b/w 2 pple who dislike each other. only when they both start to hate each other's guts out will they 'successfully' dislike each other.

use this to your advantage and don't dislike pple. like everyone and maintain tt attitude and if you don't change ur stand on INSITING tt u be friendly to everyone u'll find tt u'll have lots more friends. friendships can also be preserved by not taking ur friends for granted and appreciating them when they're around you.

feelings can be manipulated, so cut the crap on how feelings are beyond our control, cause before tt wave of melancholy creeps up on you, realise tt it's coming; or if u're already in it, realise tt u are and take control of the situation. it WILL be hard to get into the realisation and do something about it instead of letting it gnaw on you, but when u look back u'll realise tt it's all worth the effort. late liao. sleeeeeepppp......

ok, again on valentine's day. :) someone sent me this, thought it was quite meaningful and would like to post it. above all, God comes first in every relationship.

so to all the couples out there, have a happy valentine's! and those who have not found their partner yet, remember tt going into a relationship for the wrong reasons dooms it from the start.

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How To Be A Better Couple
10 steps to enjoying each other better...

1. Be realistic about each other.
Don't try to turn ur partner into something he or she is not. Let's face it, guys-there's only 1 Pamela Anderson in the world, and even she has had her implants removed! Give ur gal a break and understand that her physical appearance is NOT going to change overnite with the help of a few facials ! or treat ments. And ladies, Brad Pitt has already been taken, so u're gonna have to do with what ur guy is like! Chill out, love each other for what u are. There is more to ur partner than what meets the eye.

2. Always talk things out.
Now guys, I know this is not ur fave pastime or mode of resolving issues, but u know what? This works with the gals. Don't make assumptions about each other's feelings. Learn to xpress urself better so that ur partner undrstands what u're angry about, or hurt about, or even happy about! When u stop talking to each other from the heart, it's the beginning of the end.

3. Do stuff together.
Make an effort to do things together. Do some sports or involve urselves in some shared activities; something both of u enjoy or are interested in. It could be as simple as watching movies together, or jus strolling hand-in-hand down Orchard Road. Watch soccor with him once in a while though the green patch on TV puts u to sleep in 3 seconds. And guys, do give in if ur gal asks for another day at window-shopping, rather than suggest that she go out with her girlfriends for "that sort of activities" instead. If u're spending more time with ur friends rather than with ur partner, it's a warning sign that u're drifting apart!!!

4. Meet each other halfway.
If he agrees to throw out that rotten T-shirt with the "The_Rock" print, u shouldn't kick up much of a fuss if he asks u to keep ur room tidy. There's gotta be a little giving and taking in a relationship, so learn to meet each other halfway.

5.Show ur love
Buy her flowers or candy or perfume everynow and then, even if u have been together for 5years. It's wonderful to continue showing someone that u care for him or her. Cook him a special meal, paint him a Valentine's Day card. Knit him mini-socks he can't wear ( like for decoration purposes => ), buy him a packet of milk for breakfast, or pack his wardrobe for him...so he knows u can still be romantic and loving despite having been together for quite a while.

6. Respect each other.
Stop making jokes about her hair or skin, or whatever it is u love to laugh at. Ask urself if she thinks if its funny. And if he has an inferiority complex about his height, stop ogling at tall guys and make him feel worse! Love is about respecting each other's feelings and being sensitive to each other at all times.

7. Bury the past.
Stop bringing up the past. Gals..don't bring up the happy things about u and ur ex to ur guy, it would jus make him jealous or unhappy. And guys, don't talk about the happy times that u had with ur ex or mention about her in ur every other sentence as it would make ur gal feel un-happy and she might think that u saying all this b'cos u are gonna get back with ur ex or not interested in her anymore.

8. Sit on ur jealousy.
All of us go thru' spells of insecurity at the beginning of the relationship, but don't translate that insecurity into jealousy. If u're gonna go through ur partner's mail and cupboard, and eavesdropping on conversations, u know something is wrong - with u!!! Jealousy is like a poison that slowly spreads thru' the relationship before finally killing it. Trust ur partner; love has to have trust in it.

9. Keep ur commitments to each other.
If ur partner is standing u up all the time and cancelling dates and breaking promises, u need to talk! If u're in a relationship, make ur partner ur priority and don't disappoint them if u can help it. It's really terrible when someone promises to take u to dinner, and then calls to cancel it. Don't make promises u can't keep. If ur partner starts to feel that he/she is not important enough to u, u may jus lose him/her.

10. Be honest.
Honesty is not scowling at how awful she looks first thing in the morning, or telling him that he has the biceps of a fly~! When we say "be honest", we mean expressing ur feelings clearly, not being bitingly cruel. When u're hurt, say so, and when u're angry, tell him/her, w/o getting hysterical. If u can't be honest with ur partner, who can u be honest with? Love is also about honesty, and a relationship where no honesty exists probably isn't worth it!

just came back from driving test.

nope, failed. got 34 pts. well, my driving was not tt good, made a few blunders. :) but somehow i didn't fail till just before entering the driving centre, when i tried to overtake a taxi and went too close. haha~ so tt got me 16 pts and i failed.

so, this just means tt it's not time yet for me to pass. cause everything's in His hands and it's really nice to know tt there's a reason behind why i don't pass yet. though i may not know for certain what is it, but i'll just go trusting. :)

nad i went shopping at united sq for groceries cause my relatives are coming on sun. and baoyan messaged me. really nice, cause i don't talk much to her at all, but she came with a very comforting message, "keep your eyes on he cross and there u'll find all tt u ever need."

wah...

now, i wasn't sad at all liao. but when i read it, it just reaffirmed w/o a doubt what i knew already. tt's God never forsook me and tt He's there with me. everything is in His hands and i just have to keep my eyes on Him.

it's ok, just retake lor. pass with 18 pts also not guang(1) cai(3) *grin* :) earliest date's 1st april. maybe i'll get one mid april one. stay tuned! :)

hmmm. i wanted to blog so many other stuff tt came to mind on my way to driving today. but when i switched on my comp, emily sent me this link showing a clip talking about valentines' day.

she said it was funny. i think it's quite meaningful.

haha. strikes a cord within me.

may take a while to load, but all the singles out there, pls go watch it. :)

click me for nice and hear-warming movie!

just came back from watching 'BIG Fish'. i think it's quite a nice show lar. it's the type which gets me thinking.

basically about this guy who's been listening to his dad's fantasy stories all his life and has grown very skeptical of them. stories tt are really exaggarated and somewhat hard to believe.

but the real crunch really comes when his dad was taken seriously ill by cancer and subsequently developed a stroke too, which led him to dig deeper into his dad's life and into the truth of all the stories tt he's been told since young. so in his little adventure, he finds tt of the stories tt his dad has been telling him, they're not entirely tall tales. there's a certain truth in every single one of them.

so. really the thing here is not so much about a guy having misunderstood his dad and 'wronged' him. but the thing which struck deeply within me was the fact tt we should never be too busy to listen to what our loved ones around us have to say.

never say tt u're too busy; never view what they have to say with tt skeptimism; never be impatient with them but always extend them love.

cause don't wait till it's too late to do so, and regret for the rest of ur life. cherish ur loved ones and stop, if only to listen to what they have to say to u.

the man in the show DID get to reconcile his dad's world with his after being alienated from each other for so long. but u see, tt was just 5 mins before his dad passed away. how much better would it have been if they're bridged their differences previously?

not at the hospital bedside. tt's the worst place to do such stuff. maybe on a picnic. or a fishing trip. or even during a late night talk father-and-son.

and we'll never realise the mean comments tt we make to our loved ones (parents in particular) tt make theem feel so unwanted at times. even though at tt time we may feel tt we're in the right, but reflecting on the situation then makes us see things more clearly.

yepyep. one thing i've learnt today is appreciation. thanks to all those out there who care. :)

oh yes, and if u've got the time, u may want to watch a trailer of this new movie coming up. it's about the life of Christ on earth and His cruxifion.

The Passion

heh. i was just looking at yy's blog and was thinking a bit. it's actually quite an entertaining read. :) haha, and i was just thinking when would i ever acquire the level of his literary genius. i think emily's blog also makes a rather entertaining read too.

blogging this form the library. one of the few rare times i'm in the med lib, and even rarer is the fact tt i'm actually sitting in front of the comp browsing through the net, hogging the terminals and depriving of some other person who needs this more urgently than i do.

muahaha.

a note again on sleeping: i didn't manage to get myself to sleep last night till about 3-4am... very terrible. and i was just tossing & turning ard on bed... which actually goes very well to explaining WHY my brain is 1/2 functioning today... and i've this terrible headache. well, when i came to sch today, andre suggested tt next time i can't get to sleep, i should try reading a book/mugging. maybe i should cause it most certainly is a much better use of time than flipping ard and ard and ard and ard and ard on bed trying to look for the perfect 'sleeping postion'...

oh yeah. i figured the reason behind why i was not able to sleep was 'cause i slept from 1830 to 2130 before waking up to watch 'truman show'.

darn. note to self: don't try napping in the evening EVER again.

yep, whiling the time away over here while waiting for emily's lesson to end at 4... oh wait. it's ended. yar, leaving for tiong baru to catch the shoe "BIG fish" at 5. charity screening, but it's burned a hole in my pocket. guess it's ok though. just eat less for bfast lunch and dinner.

haha good one there hope...

oh yes may i add, dr kumar seems to have an affinity for mr chang guohao. scandalous.

and i discovered a VERY shocking mistake i've been making. it appears the wanlin in my pbl is not tan wanlin but some other wanlin who i've forgotton the surname. (oops sorry if 'the other' wanlin should happen to read this, but i really don't know ur surname... :P) yes, which explains very well quite a few puzzlements tt andre got.

yes and she was trying to sell me and weeming some OTHER charity screening tics. hmmm. i'll have to save up more if i want to go for tt one as well. :)

ok, i'm gonna sleep a bit now before go tiong baru.

today was CA8. oh well, generally ok lor. not spectacular. ok, it wasn't too good. but anat's worse than physio. go figure.

i was talking to some friends after the CA and we came to the conclusion tt we didn't want to discuss it much. but something very perculiar came up admist our discussions -- tt pple who think they did well for tests should just say so. don't say "aiyoh... die...", then end up getting the top 5% or something... rather irritating.

but tt's just a sidenote. today was quite a nice day cause we had a group gathering back at ri. scouts. :) and really met up with quite a few old friends whom i've not met in some time liao. i think since sch started last yr. so it was quite nice. the food was delicious too. considering its palatibility, it was suprising tt the food was supplied by reveda, our friendly ri caterer. (those from ri should have this name ring quite a big bell...)

yepyep. and there are some of them who still don't know tt i signed on with the saf. as usual, the response is an initial shock, then proceeds on in a couple of ways -- a) a continued state of shock and disbelief seen from their state of facial palsy; b) whole stream of explitives condemning me to the deepest recesses for making the most foolish decision of my life; c) consoling me just as if my most beloved pet hamster died; d) saying "oh, tt's nice. good decision!" in the most benolevent manner they can muster.

yar, but u get the pt.

and it was real good to see all the comissioned pple coming back and talking abt where they've all been posted to and how they're getting along there now. and can i say tt i'm really glad for them, cause after going through all tt tough training, it's FINALLY over... haha~~ now it's their turn to enjoy. :)

mine's 6 yrs later, so anyway...

it was very encouraging seeing the v.old scouts taking the time off to come for the gathering. and not tt they are free pple. most of them are quite busy, with many commitments and appointments. esp when i looked at the guest list... quite illustrious. yep, really encouraging to see all of them back and actively participating in the activities.

there were quite a few memorabilia on sale too. i bought this keychain($4) and a nice black polo shirt($15) tt they specially made for the gathering (which i'll probably wear in the near future). it's really meaningful cause the proceeds from the sale and the dinner($15) will go towards helping a 02 scout. see, he's some problems with some medical fees and 01 is chipping in to help him foot the bill. tt's meaningful. especially with so many times of 'rivalry' b/w the 2 ri scout groups. yepyep. quite a nice gesture.

which brings up another issue which has been bothering me a teeny-weeny bit, tt is spending too much. hehe. must have more discernment in managing finances. *grin*

and i'd better catch up on sleep too. funny. not tt i've been sleeping very little too. sleeping mostly abt 6 hrs everyday, and don't know how come still so tired... haiz.

arh. finally got myself down to blogging in QUITE a while. :)

blogger's seem to begin to malfunction again... sometimes i can't access my own blog and so cannot see what comments are posted. can only type and post entries. :)

had a really weird dream yesterday afternoon. i dreamt tt the whole of the m1 batch went to east coast for bbq, and when everything ended and everyone started going home, we headed for the mrt station. but it was very late already and most of the lights in the mrt station were off. yep, and there was a vampire down there and everyone who went down to take the train got sucked dry. and when i headed down to take the train (with someone who i can't rem now who was it), someone in the station told me tt the station was closed already and asked me to leave. so i didn't die after all.

and then i woke up and played dota with wm. :) maybe tt's why lar. cause it was an afternoon nap waiting for wm to call me to play dota. haha. insane.

dota!

oh well, so much for a crappy dream.

but i love dreams where u know it's a dream. and then i'll dream out more monsters and stuff and make my dream more exciting. anyway after i wake up and realise tt i'm actually dreaming, i'll go back to sleep with a sneaky smile and take full control of the dream... muahaha.

yar. so i'll be like invincible, have super powers of superman, power rangers, ninja turtles and etcetc... and any nightmare just turns into a sweet dream. i love dreams.

hmmm, is tt too much into my world...

wheeee~~~

i remember these dreams tt i have where i'ld feel totally euphoric because of... (certain details which i'm not entitled to share with u'll... :p) but i'll get woken pu because of some stupid reason. yar, but anyway. i'll just try to snuggle myself back to sleep and try to get back the same dream. rarely does it happen and i'll usually end up disappointed. but it's ok, just a dream. :)

tt's so much for today. gotta sleep now. night. :)