haha, so interesting...

guess what? i sprained my tummy... at least maybe my right internal obliques in slightly more medical lingo. so amazing. how can u every sprain it... yea, was bending forward to scratch my leg one morning when i was still 1/2 asleep and sitting on my bed.

oh yes, might i add to those who're preparing for mbbs 1st pros just like moi, don't forget there's embryo and histo too.

evil-ly,

ok, got this from class mail. wait a min, shouldn't i be mugging...

yep, but it's quite meaningful. wanted to post something abt autocracy tt came to mind today but didn't have the time to type it out. so this serves as a note for another time.

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F A M I L Y

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.

He said, "Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you."

We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said good-bye.

But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.

Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.

When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.

He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.

While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,

"While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse.

Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.

Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.

He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."

By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.

I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.

"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.

I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."

I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay.
I love you anyway."

I said, "Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."

and i got a very nice teddy from a friend today! haha. very cute! thanks. :)

and now mr teddy's sitting on my radio staring at me type out this blog. haha.

good teddy...

cleared up some misunderstanding with a certain close friend today. some misunderstandings tt was really alike to a glass wall b/w us. seems to be there but not there. haiz.

but, it's ok liao now. ^.^

and the weird thing was tt he thought i was irritated at him, while i thought he was peeved at me.

wonders of misunderstandings.

every relationship tt works out must have complete frankness b/w thye 2 individuals, if not such silly misunderstandings may occur. esp if neither of the 2 decide to speak up to clear the air, the relationship will be doomed.

but in this case, he spoke up. :) and i'm so happy tt things are much better now. i'ld call it a step forward in this friendship tt will last for all time.

there was a man who was depressed because of the problems around him and cried out to God, "God, how much do u love me?"

"I love u this much, son...", and He stretched out His hands towards the man, and pressed His nail-pierced hands against mine.

"I love u this much."

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some of us may have read a similar passage just like the one above before, and the one here ends slightly differently from the original passage.

it ended with God's reply of stretching out His hands wide and dying on the cross saying, "this much."

yesterday night a friend asked me, "can u remind me how much God loves me?"

i thought for a moment, and turned the question to God, "God, how much do You love me?"

His reply was different from what i had read before in the original passage. He reached out to me and pressed His nailed-pierced hands against mine, and i could feel the scars left by the nails as He held His hands in mine.

you know, through all the pain and agony as He hung on the cross, He didn't for a moment let me slip out of His hands... God always yearned to hold me close to Him at all times. He's just waiting to love us, if only we'll let Him.

and tt's the passion of Christ. such wondrous love. i'll really never understand tt love. i'll never understand it.

q: have u heard of the butter joke?
a: don't go spread it around.

q: have u heard of the turtle joke???
a: forget it, u'll prob be too slow to get it...

q: have u heard of the swimming pool joke???
a: it's probably too deep for you.

q: have u heard of the cheetah tt couldn't walk???
a: nah, tt one was lame.

q: have u heard of the fountain pen joke?
a: there was really no point.

lame-mily~~

in a rather contemplative mood today again. had a weird dream last night, one of those where u wish will never end and continue in state of happiness. :)

haha~~

but maybe it's because i was listening to ying(1) yue(4) ri (4) ji(4) before i slept yesternight. and the funny thing is tt they're replaying it right now as i'm typing this out.

i was contemplating over a comment tt some friend told me, "time is what u make of it." so how true is tt? sounds right alright. but does everything tt sound right actually apply rightly to our lives? isn't it the same thing about fidelity all other morals?

has it occured to u tt it may actually not necessarily be the 'right' thing to do, but rather just a concept tt pple of the past thought out and introduced?

we're just longing for social acceptance and approval. because if u do this and this and this, pple will find u to be a pleasant person and u're thus 'approved' in the eyes of pple.

haha, don't know if anyone understands what i'm blabbering about here...

and maybe we'll never find out if it is actually just a race for approval ratings on our foreheads or something more, something like an inert characteristic within us which actually knows what is right and what is wrong. (which again brings back to the question of the origin of this moral law)

yes. something more tt tells us what's right and what's wrong.

yes, a conscience. tt's what it is.

so interesting to have such a 'thing' within us. where does it come from? it certainly isn't something physical tt we can see. and perhaps it's just an effect derived from a mixture of biochemicals secreted by this organ and tt.

well, maybe~~

so, do we see them in animals too? seems quite amazing, cause i think we DO see this in some animals, like the classic example of the crow which returns to feed it's aging parents (courtesy of p sch teachers who so pounded it into our heads); but also look at pigs tt devour their young; or many other species tt may exhibit traits and actions tt seem to be 'moral' or 'immoral' to us.

what is the instinct within them tt drives them to do what they do? is it just nothing more than a pre-set standard tt they follow? how about us? who sets these standards then? if a person was raised in total isolation with no one to influence the way he thinks or feels, would these standards still apply to him?

"for I will write My laws on their hearts and Minds" -- Jer 31:33". maybe tt's why.

since i've got a bit more time now on my hands, thought i'ld blog. :)

i think spots was ok. quite a few silly mistakes though, but generally should be ok. and also went to check CA9 biochem results, should be ok lar. somewhere in the mode.

and of course with the insane biochem scores, mode is always so high... gettin 75 would put u below the class average.

what the....

went to watch butterfly effect with alvin yesterday. i think it was a very disturbing show, though the plot was very ingenius (haha, ingenius, not genius, as karen correctly put), but it was quite a violent show too with all the bludgeonings and arsons, murders and paedophile fathers, prostitutes and psychitric patients. u get the idea...

rather depressing too in addition to being disturbing.

exams are starting in 3wks time. seriously, there's just SO much to study. hmmm, i think i better start studying tonight if i want to finish revising the syllabus at all.

recently started raining again. something's wrong with the weather lar. but right now rain just stopped. just right for a short nap before dinner. *grin* off i go now to play chess with mr chou.

aiyoh. i saw this clip. really har...

darn funny, laughed and laughed alot. but it's a little lewd humor though.

but very funny

haha...

http://www.keenaschips.co.uk/index.php?page=articles/misc_rainbow&skinselect=default.css

can't wait for spots to be over
can't wait for spots to be over
can't wait for spots to be over

haha, and alvin passed his driving liao! wed is someone else's driving test too. all the best! :) and alvin's treating me to lunch tml after spots. actually, he's using me to go have lunch with someone else.

haiyoh. how does it feel to be used... tsk. it had better be a good lunch.

grandma's bdae is on sat. don't know how leh, cause got "worship under the stars" on tt night also. haiz.

haiz...

anyway, it's this worship event on sat 13th march at palawan beach sentosa. it'll be an afternoon of games and night of praise and worship. under the stars. p&w starts at 1930. haha~~ advertistment. but pple who don't have tics can probably just crash the night event. it'll be great.

i want to go....

aiyoh. just got insulted recently. someone (girl, thank u very much) told me tt she dreamt tt she got married to me... and i was scolding her cause she was taking too much time rehearsing walking the aisle. so we quarreled on our wedding day and i refused to send her home after the rehearsal because i was pissed with her.

oh no, what has happened to my image? really tt fierce meh?

i think i'm quite a nice guy.

... and the crowd covers their ears and screams in agony.

but the best part was tt she told me straight in the face it was a NIGHTMARE... even better was tt she went to tell her bf abt tt dream. i mean... HAIYOH! now whenever i see him i'll feel so awkward lar.

haha ~~ anyway there's definately nothing going on b/w me and tt girl; and she has a good bf liao. tt's why i can type this out. :) but let's keep names away for fear of riducule.

dreamily~~

oh well, spots is on tues and i haven't touched head/neck and abdomen. at all. it's ok i guess, not worth gettin worried over liao, just study as much as i can.

yep, don't stress.

oh yes, histo too.

signing off now.

haha. did a lotr quizilla and i'm haldir. don't know who he is, but what the heck. at least i'm an elf. oh yes, i was trying to get some orc by choosing all the brutal/gross choices but guess what? i ended up with aragorn.

speaks plenty.