idolatory

went for a nice dinner at subway with some of the guys after CA. oh man, wasn't tt a well deserved break... i just feel so relieved and happy tt i got 1 week to the next paper. time to take a good nice long deep sleep tonight.

it was quite exciting over lunch just now cause when we were talking over nice teriyaki sandwiches just now, in walked the singapore idol contestants! yar the olinda, daphne, sylvester and the indian guy (who i really don't know his name). but very sad cause none of us at the table watched singapore idol, so none of us were going gaga over them.

and they came and sat down right next to us! and sylvester was sitting just diagonal to me. haha. he's quite thin and white in person. actually they all seemed quite close, talking and laughing and all tt. didn't seem like they were all competitors for the same ONE spot of singapore idol... they were quite loud though. haha, i was sitting in such a way tt i was blocking the way for olinda to get to her seat (cause we had 7 pple sitting at a 6 seater so i was sitting at the corner) i had to get up for her to get in - and she was apologising again and again. she dyed her hair purple leh. did it come out yesterday on tv? sj sorry, someone beat u to purple liao. u too slow liao lar.

i guess when u become famous like something these guys are now, life's never the same liao. pple will always be looking at u and whispering. zi(2) zi(3) dian(2) dian(3) one... even although we never watch singapore idol, it was hard for me not to look. haha, but didn't manage to listen to what they were talking about lar. caught something abt what type of guys/girls they like. but honestly my wonderful memory has once again erased everything short term.

the guys are lanning at meridian now. didn't want to go cause i was driving today and refuse to park in the cbd. so i'm back home, and it's started raining. so i'm stuck here. blah.

i'm blue!

arh see. i'm so happy. got my favourite colour.

BLUE You give your love and friendship unconditionaly. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive. Find out your color at Quiz Me!

visit to the doctor

just came back from a visit to the neighbourhood clinic. and i think it'll be hard to guess who was my gp! haha. quite an interesting, jolly old chap who's quite goh lee gan-ish. in fact he knows goh lee gan too, and i guess it must be cause he was also an ex sma president. haha, and also one of the cofm pple lar.

i think he should be a senior consultant too if u look at it, but he actually opened a neighbourhood clinic. seems to me tt he's just doctoring to pass time. afterall, doctoring may be quite satisfying and rewarding too.

i waited for my turn for abt 30 mins (just 1 patient was seen in these 30 mins!) and honestly i was really feeling quite sick and abt to throw up liao. but thank goodness my turn finally came and i stepped into the room. it's my 1st time seeing him but having heard his lai(2) li(4) from my family i was keeping my eyes peeled to spot any resemblances b/w him and his brother. unfortunately i found them to possess rather different features.

i kept it in mind to lengthen the consultation for as long as possible (afterall i waited for so long right??) and i knew i would not be brushed aside. all tt reading of cofm has certainly helped *smirk* so we went on about CAs, and neuroanat, and a little bit of other stuff. i enjoyed his company and his jovial mood rubbed off onto me too, possibly making me smile for the 1st time in the entire weekend. the atmosphere in the consultation room was certainly very relaxed and happy. there seemed to be nothing i couldn't tell him, and i found my periphral knowledge on medical lingo lubricating the communication between us.

when it was time to go, i was almost sad to leave.

this experience has certainly reinforced my belief tt the greatest sense of satisfaction would be derieved from practicing as a gp. cause the role encompasses all tt being a doctor is really about.

oh yes, the doctor here is lee suan yew, the bro of supposedly the most powerful man in the country. adds a little twist to the whole visit doesn't it?

circuit break

taking a break from cofm mugging. aiyar, actually more like reading. cause it's really like read newspaper liddat, prob won't be able to remember much. just grasping a general idea of the issues mentioned in the notes...

and has anyone else noticed tt the notes are riddled with gramatical mistakes? there is also the infrequent punctuation of meaningless 'in's...

still feeling a bit dazed from the infection. yesterday night was quite bad, couldn't sleep properly.

oh man, american funniest home videos is SO FUNNY! certainly helps to lighten up the mood. :)

playhouse

haha i think today was quite an experience. never participated in any stage production before, therefore this was really quite an experience.

come to think of it, i NEVER sat down and watched a sch play before. think i probably watched at most 2 professional productions only...

haha. but it was good fun today.

i think our play was quite disjointed, and i heard from pple tt they couldn't link certain parts. for eg. the bit abt me trying to be lecherous towards maureen. haha. they couldn't tell if it was intentionaly or not. haha, maybe they thought it was really bad expression.

and i didn't manage to put on my socks fast enough during my change parade so i just ran out w/o them. hehe. and the delay in changing into the army attire resulted in not enough time ofr my changing into formal attire. haha. then never button properly and tuck in properly also.

but despite all tt, i guess we all enjoyed ourselves very much. there were a handful of pple who came down to support us! so nice of them. qich, tea axe elle, wm, andre, shawn, mavis, ek khoon, junxu, kim, peilin. i even got flowers leh from qich and tea axe elle. also thanks to alvin, pangsai, ht, yq for their well wishes too. :) wah. so happy. even gan came down!

i guess everyone's just relieved tt playhouse has ended. time to go back to mugging. but not with the myalgia still rearing it's ugly head. my eyeballs hurt. occipitofrontalis aches. coupled with malaise. runny nose just set in. fever's subsided. :)

yup, this may sound cliche, but i've realised tt winning's secondary. it's the fun we have, ups and downs together tt really matter. it's an experience nonetheless and one worthy to keep for a long time.

my bed beckons.

naughty bug

so i didn't manage to wish wm happy bdae at 12am. woke up at 10, then kept going back to sleep... haven't had lunch. feeling sick, just puked up, but feeling much better now. still feeling feverish, throbbing headache, bit of a sore throat... symptoms only started yesterday night just before i slept... sianz.

i want to get better soon. feel so handicapped. anyway tml got playhouse. missed the final rehearsal today in sch cause i was really in no condition to travel... haiyoh, hope tt missing out on the rehearsal will not lead to too many disastrous consequences...

and need i mention tt there's no way i can mug now... i want to recover quick!

playhouse starts at 1pm tml with the m1s performing. so i guess our slot will be sometime around 2pm. :) i'm acting as a boy who later grows up and will become a flirt. quite a nice storyline injected with humor in certain scenes.

happy bdae!

wm's bdae is tml, and i want to be the first to wish him happy bdae. i shall be crouching at my phone waiting to pounce on him with a sms.

muahahaha.

HAPPY BDAE WM!

hope this day will be a most memorable one for u. :) smile always.

boo.

i don't like the huai(4) ren(4).

xing(1) fan(2) yi(4) luan(4)

what do you do when u're sad? hmmm i was thinking abt it just now on the way back. well i was feeling a little down cause i was starting to hu(2) si(1) luan(4) siang(3) again...

• some pple prefer to shop and spend. maybe cause it gives them a sense of power and control. it makes them feel, "hey i'm not doing too bad..." but this is bad, cause after things have subsided u'll find tt u've just burnt a hole in your pocket. something not tt healthy if u dont' have the financial power to splurge in the first place. shopping after u burst ur budget has reverse effects. trust me.

• others would eat their sorrows away. eating does make the depressed feel better. it's worked for me too, and it's really the most unhealthy and tasty foods (ie chocolates, deep fried stuffs, ice cream, hard liquor) tt have maximal effect. afterall, isn't there experimental evidence tt such 'happy foods' really work?

• others just sit in a corner and mull over things. keep everything to themselves and fustrate everyone around them. well, everyoneo who cares for them tt is. sometimes it may be the best thing to do cause u're really clueless as to what to do. or what to say. just sitting at a side. quiet. thinking.

• again there are pple who work themselves hard, set themselves on fire to distract themselves. occupy themselves with so many activities tt they hardly have time to catch a breath. this works well, not to mention the gain in productivity tt u acquire. sadly - escapism. not facing the problem and nothing gets solved. argubly this may be good cause it provides the delay for time to heal.

• a couple of pple will go into a spiral of denial. pestering the problem and going on and on, convincing themselves tt they're really trying to solve the problem but in fact they're afraid to let go. cause they feel there's too much to lose.

• and there are pple who just want to talk. a shoulder to cry on; a listening ear. but no one seems to be around.

well i guess i'm a bit of all the above. it's hard to neatly categorise anyone into these neat little boxes really, probably there're even more behaviours than the above which i have no knowledge of anyway. oh well, i should be bathing then go study... but it's hard to study when ur mind's not settled yet.

more photos

ok, below are the photos from night cycling. finally got them from gan after he came back from his diving trip. wah. he went tioman with gabs and twohill. exciting.

gtg sleep liao.

reason 3. enough said before i get stoned. 

see, this is reason 2 why i should enter some competition. so postcard. haha and also so bhb. 

did u know tt singapore had such beautiful sunrises? took this with gan's cam cause i brought the wrong memory card... i think i should go take part in some amature photo competition. 

breakfast at mc cafe back at east coast. we started off by tokking kok, but one by one we all fell asleep. gan put sleeping pills into alex's and my drink. look at his smug look. 

supper at geylang! the frog leg porridge was fabulous! :) see my eyes open until so big cause i saw the frog porridge coming! 

starting/ending pt was at macs at east coast. good good cause it was marine cove - church's di(4) pan(2). :) hui(2) wei(4) tong(2) nian(2)! 

what a wonderful world!

today was a wonderful day. started off with the playhouse rehersals being super succinct and we actually ended less than 60mins! wah. incredible. previously the record was 140mins. which is really insane.

then mugging in lib was quite productive also. with emi fujita serenading me, it was quite therapeutic even... thought i must say tt i played the cd >5 times over. haha.

dinner was sweet also.

even going home was real nice too. though it was raining.

oh yes i just received the statement of account for my account last month. WAH LAU got a shock. my expenditure has never been so high in my life before... sianz. but maybe it's due to some purchases tt i made - which is like contacts, specs etc. and also the birthdays which i paid for first, haven't got the sharing settled yet.

boh lui arr...

oh yes, bought some proper stationery today. FINALLY got my long overdue pencil lead, pens, eraser, correction fluid...

and today is a wonderful day. :)

concert at esplanade, 1930hrs

I WANT TO GO... sigh, ek told me in the car yesterday tt he's gg... aiyoh. actually, i knew there was going to be a concert coming soon to singapore, but i didn't have the details nor bothered to go find any so...

haiz.

thalamus -- "thou shalt not pass!"

why is neuroanat so idiotic (i just realised tt this is an oxymoron). stuck at thalamus in the last set of NYK's notes...

sigh. so here am i blogging again. actually, this post has a higher calling, cause just now jingyu was asking me for the website to sign up for the standard chartered singapore marathon, cause he and colin are interested in signing up! yay!

now my goal will be to jio more pple to come join the event. i think it'll be very fun for more pple to sign up so we can prepare/train for the event together, and maybe also go out for a late breakfast after the run itself. :) more pple go together also got more motivation to train mar. :)

so far pple who i know are going already are jingyu, colin, ziyang, jenming and myself. details of the race can be found here. i think there're more pple who have already signed up for the marathon, but still don't know who. always liddat one, last minute at the event then see them. or see them wearing the t-shirts some days later.

med fac's a warzone. well, at least lt28. but i think it all stems from misunderstanding. really. i guess it'll be like the iraq war when it's all over, a retrospective view will find no plausible reason for aggression.

road relay

just came back from road relay. :) haha, what a wonderful race. last minute we reshuffled the teams and i ended up running in the other team... it was a good run.

not to mention tt we won! yay. :) in fact we trashed the closest team (m4s) by quite a fair bit. esp during jenming's lap when it was simply quite insane. very exciting really.

cause i was the 2nd runner, and at tt pt of time the m4s were leading by a bit, probably 15m in front... but really DAMN shagged out cannot catch up lar. then after i tagged to jenming it was amazing lar!

haha cause on the way back, he was leading so far ahead of the other guy. in fact, so far tt by the time jm was outside the lim seng tjoe lt, the m4 guy was nowhere to be seen! haha, not even at the top of the hill at the track. :)

for the girls team we came in a cool 2nd after the m3s. it was really SO SO close, 5m difference only at the end pt. and the reason why we lost is of course due to this super-woman, who rumoredly could do 2.4 in 9:12. wah... she ran the 1st and last league somemore leh cause the m3s could not find enough pple. real good race nonetheless. :)

ek khoon gave me a lift back after the race. thanks! :) think he's quite a nice and friendly guy really. :)

what's more heart warming is the fact tt many pple who were not even involved in the race came down to support us. wah really nice. tea axe elle, anin, cheesie came. jeanette, yet yen and clarence also came down. :) thanks guys. :)

road relay was all about having fun and taking a break. though i must admit when u're running it's alot of pride also. haha but tt aside, i guess i enjoyed it really alot. :)

today got wine today get drunk

yay just about to end another day of little mugging... :) played wc3 with the gang, wah, damn fun! :) wm and i were pwning each other lar. really purposely aim for one another one. :) haha wm. *waves* the rest of the pple are still playing, some of us went off first. enli!!! off lar u... things were just starting to get exciting. :)

road relay is tml afternoon, hope the m2s will perform well.

oops, maybe i had a bit too much to drink liao. must mug hard tml! :)

some things are just not what they seem to be

qns: when's a door not a door?
ans: when's it's ajar

qns: when's a car not a car?
ans: when it's turned into a parking lot

:)

methuselah

oh yes before i forget. :) TTSh mentioned this morning tt it was impossible for someone to live for 969 yrs (gen 5:21-27) cause the theory behind telomeres just wouldn't allow it. so muthu's long life was accorded to a trans-scribing error cause God was too busy managing the universe therefore he tasked someone to write the bible. well, i think he made the comment in jest, but nonetheless it just reminded me of the sweet meaning behind the significance of methuselah's story. trust it will be interesting for christians who dont' know this yet. :) well he mentioned 990 but anyway...

muthu's name literally means "his death shall bring" in hebrew. dear muthu was the grandfather of noah, whom we dearly associate with the flood and of course the cute little animals on board.

what did his death bring? the flood of course. when God was so angry with man, He made an oath to flood the earth once this man died. now, isn't it interesting then to note tt muthu was the longest living person in the whole bible? (even > adam?)

and hardly could u find any reason for God to make muthu the longest living person, other than tt He was such a loving God tt He was reluctant to wipe out man. but yet he was bound by this oath to bring the flood when muthu died.

it is not the nature of God to be angry or to punish. it is described as weird for God to feel angry or to deal out punishment. it is just not the nature of God. beautiful. :)

names in the bible are quite interesting. something i swiped off a site:

"When we look at the meaning of the names in this chapter, a whole new light is shed on the authenticity of the book of Genesis and our understanding of how God uses the bible to speak to us. The list of names and their meanings is:

Hebrew Name English Name
Adam ------------------------------ Man
Seth ------------------------------- Appointed
Enosh ------------------------------ Mortal
Kenan ------------------------------ Sorrow
Mahelale -------------------------- The Blessed God
Jared ------------------------------ Shall Come Down
Enoch ------------------------------ Teaching
Methuselah ----------------------- His Death Shall Bring
Lamech ---------------------------- The Despairing
Noah ------------------------------ Comfort, Rest

In English it reads:
Man Appointed Mortal Sorrow. The Blessed God Shall come down Teaching His death shall bring The Despairing Comfort.

Praise God that He has revealed His message even in the most unexpected places."

http://www.ldolphin.org/studynotes/types.htm

sweet. nice revelations are encoded everywhere in the bible waiting to be dug out. :) in fact, many such sweet tidbits have been dug out and enjoyed already. :) another superficial reason why the bible is not a work of fabrication - someone who decides to 'fake' something couldn't have had such genius nor taken so much effort to make the bible so seamless. nothing contradicts but everything just brings out the beauty of another. :)

nothing against TTSh REALLY. i really think he meant it in jest. haha even if he didn't, i guess it's not an issue too.

inertia

supposed to go out jogging tonight but just don't feel like at the moment.. argh. if this goes on i'll just -plop- for scm...

tea axe elle asked me what song was it i was talking abt in the previous post. it's this song " from a distance" sung by emi fujita in the cd - camomile. :) something i really like abt the cd is tt the songs are real meaningful, not all love love type but actually they mean stuff.

sigh. i shall go snack first *yummy* then decide if i should go train later... and even my training is not as long as it should be. too short. but no time lar. haha, rather no discipline.

oh yes, playhouse rehearsal today was quite good. we actually tried it on a pseudo-stage so we could work out the directions. then went to mug (but onli very late...) in lib till abt 9 then here i am at home. :)

from a distance



i thought one particular song in this cd was very meaningful. something about looking at things from a distance. and u find tt most things are quite complete. everything seems ideallic and there is just so much less for us to worry about. i would post it but i've heard tt pple (myself incld) tend to scroll extra fast when they see lyrics. :) haha. so no pt in typing it out.

but anyway, i really think looking at things from a distance is a good principle to adopt. cause pple are too tied down by stuff, trying to micro manage every detail in their lives. it has already become our instinct to scrutinise and pick out the faults and flaws. focusing on things tt are so minor, we may often lose the big picture and give an undue weightage on small faults...

from a distance it's simple. the world just looks blue and green. no strife, no crime, no hungry mouths to feed. if pple choose to look from a distance, we won't comprehand the reason for wars. (and of course again the iraq war is another controversial pt here. haha.) but yes, view earth from a distance and everything is quiet and there's harmony.

there're no worries about everyday life. cause u realise tt life will still go on whether or not u catch tt bus, or whether u win tt match on the court. if we would look at things from a distance u would just be happier. take off from worries cause life's short. don't waste another day or even hour worrying. u're not doing anyone a favour.

i found it interesting to note tt the supposed life expectancy for a singaporean male/female is abt 80/80+. which means most of us have already finished 1/4 of our tenency here on earth. :)

i just find tt sometimes when i get bogged down by minute details about how this and tt should be done; how come this turned out some other way than i planned; in essence things turn out not the way i planned them to be, i would feel slightly bothered. in fact there's no need to get fustrated - and u'll realise it when u draw yourself out and look at the situation from a distance.

i suppose the greater meaning to looking at things from afar is tt it leaves us with no choice but to 'leave out' inconsequential details in our observing (but we choose to make them ultra-causative) and taking away tt free choice of whether-to-get-bothered-or-not makes us happier cause we then will not be able to see those flaws whether we like it or not.

very much like how someone looks damn yandao/chio from a distance, then when they approach u start to see all the physical flaws in them, like their teeth not straight, skin prob etc. haha. but even in the friends i surround myself with (and even when choosing my future wife), i've grown to realise tt what's most impt is really not looks. character and personality are more impt. looks are secondary. i realised tt when i looked at the BIG picture. having a small field of view and find tt u've blinded yourself to more impt aspects tt u should be considering, or even give urself undue stress and worry.

and the most impt thing to note now is tt life still goes on when we don't see those flaws.

even more notably is tt we're happier pple not concentrating on those flaws. it's about giving up control and learning to be more 'happy-go-lucky', cause life will probably turn out just as well if the pole u set for urself wasn't tt low.

take each day as it comes and be happy, contented. look for the best in every situation and just rejoice. :) life goes on when u're sad, life goes on when u're happy. life goes on when we've have problems, life also goes on when we're having fun. this is not abt self-delusionment. it's about resting and living life the way it was meant to be lived. :)

wishes

i looked in the sky and there i saw a star
shining so bright above
i closed my eyes and wished upon that star that
i would find true love
someone who needed me
someone to share my life
for a love that would be true
i would wait forever
so no matter how long it may be
i will be waiting

1 star brighter than the others
2 hearts beating for each other
i believe that wishes really come true

love at first sight i knew it from the moment
when u said hello
i hoped you felt it too, but we were both so shy
how was i to know
when u reached for my hand
i knew you were the one
we laughed and talked for hours like i'd known
you forever
like a dream or something from a book
true love has found me

you just have to dream
nothing's as bad as it seems
to be
believe me
someone's waiting for you to try
there in the sky

you can't stop believing wishes do come true
you gotta believe me wishes do come true

oh yea, emi fujita rocks! :)

saddd

haiz. i'm feeling a little down at the moment... sigh. and don't have time to lie ard too to clear my mind. CAs and playhouse are both coming up...

mood swings. i hate them. sigh... it's really hard to forget and give up. still looking for the day when i can really just forget. i need to learn to stop feeling disappointed and concentrate on the more impt stuff...

but i guess u can't really chase darkness away. rather, darkness leaves when u bring light in. and then, darkness leaves at the speed of light. maybe it's the same principle. focus on happier stuff and i'll feel better.

todays visit to tanglin school was quite enjoyable. a valuable insight into how such special schools are run, and the potential problems tt these organisations and their students face.

can i just sleep...

classic II pls...

1. really can't hear any difference b/w classic II and cardio III; anyway we're not trained yet. furthurmore loudness is but another pseudo-parameter we have drawn up. don't see the difference in quality tt justifies me forking out >100% more
2. classic II has been used for the past tens of yrs by virtually all doctors in hospitals. seldom do u hear of any missed-mitral-regurgitation due to lousy stethoscopes leading to disastrous consequences
3. cardio III is meant for cardiologists. medical students have no need for such 'high end' equiptment
4. ICU patients in most restructured hospitals are examined with $30 made-in-china stethoscopes
5. making a wrong decision with $98 is probably not tt disastrous as compared to finding tt u've paid $137 more for something tt isn't tt good afterall
6. buying an adult stethoscope now, i can get a brand new paeds one 2/3 yrs down, depending on when i get my paeds posting. i'll be using a 2yr old 'paeds stethoscope' wif the cardio III. not to mention the warranty period wasted when the stethoscope is sitting in my cupboard

oh well, but afterall it's really to each his/her own. classic II for me! :)

memorable day

few things worth remembering today. just came back from bs, and through the worship and message, i noticed this girl moving her hands frantically through the service. i suddenly realised tt she was using sign language to translate the songs/sermon to the person beside her.

i really felt very inspired and encouraged when i saw what she was doing. the passion and tirelessness tt she was gesturing with.

it somehow fired a couple of thoughts into my mind:

1. really how blessed i am and how God has been so gracious to me
2. how much pple long to praise and worship God, despite their disabilities; how much more we who have tt hearing to appreciate the beautiful music and hear those amazing lyrics

i just felt tt i really just wanted to sing and worship. it is only out of a full heart are we able to give.

and today i went to millenia walk to get a present for P. had a REALLY hard time deciding what to get at candy empire... there was just too much variety. haha in the end settled for what i think was quite a good deal. guess we'll be passing it to him tml.

my dad also got back some lab results for lipid profile and blood profile. hdl and tg's slightly elevated, plasma bilirubin is also slightly elevated. so he's going to do some more tests tml.

well, the good thing is tt he went to do the tests only on my insistence. not due to some pain or whatsoever symptoms. so i guess it's ok. more like an annual checkup thing. a good thing afterall now tt some change to diet and lifestyle can be made whilst nothing has happened.

i find tt the more medical students study and know, the more paranoid we get and start taking minor signs as the herald of doom... just don't worry lar. :)

the wkend's coming to an end...

quite an eventful wkend, think it's another case of having too many things to do and not enough time. hope this doesn't happenen again... well, after the short break at macs we went off to geylang to meet jerald and jereme for supper. haha we ate ji(1) at geylang. very salty smell with alot of intense flavours, succulent too! 10 dollars onli somemore per person!

tian(2) ji(1) lar.

cheh. :)

haha but it was very nice leh, the gravy was super tasty and we ate with porridge which was very very smooth and thick. wah. thinking of it now also hungry liao. what mroe after tt we went next door to eat dou(4) jiang(4) you(2) tiao(2). the tou(4) hua(1) was really fluffy and sweet. hehe, apparently alex was a reg at the place with his dad... wah, liddat tell us really asking to be kar chiao-ed...

the trip ended with us gg back to east coast to catch the sun rise. and it was so funny cause we all sat ard in macs talking and resting our sore butts, then 1 by 1 we all fell asleep. and when we woke up the sun rose liao! wah so sad... but when we went to the beach the sun was very nice over the beach and i took some pics with gan's cam. very beautiful sunrise.

we drove to this old rustic coffeeshop for breakfast somewhere near marine parade which served very interesting toast. cause they used buns with their kaya toast and not normal sliced bread. but still it was quite appetising. :)

really enjoyed myself this cycling trip and though it was very tiring, i went home not with a sore butt, but also with 1 new friend made (m, this real sweet girl who is taking her a's this yr); and also many nice memories to keep and an experience to treasure. :)

had lunch wif andre at suntec at 1230 later on in the day, then went for church in the evening. plonked on the bed onli at 2330. andre treated me to lunch at kenny rogers! wah very nice of him. :) and where got pple's bdae treat pple one... i tried to convince him (though not much effort put in i must admit) but to no avail. :)

WAH LAU, wm is so lame can... mama mia = mama bu(4) zai(4) jia(1)... kaoz...

shagged out.

i need to train...

just came back from a short jog around my house. should be running a little more often than i am to train for the scm which is coming up real soon. and the funny thing i've realised is tt i'm now limited by not having enough time to train cause each run will take abt 60 mins.

and with CAs coming up... *haiz*

realised today also tt i really shouldn't be stressed over CAs. tt's not the way man. haha but looking at how much we have to study and considering it's onli 3 wks away...

STUDY time. but just don't stress!

during the run just now i was thinking of what it means to be humble. many pple think tt being humble is to say "no lar... i'm damn lousy..." after they top the class for a test or get a gold medal for some sporting event. it's hardly so. cause tt's not humbleness but stinking pride.

humbleness is in fact "a lack of false pride". not drawing attention to yourself when it is not due. tt's the key - when it is not due. cause when praise is due, freely accept it as much as we who are around ought to freely give it.

accepeting praise when it is deserved is true humbleness.

when genuine ability is exhibited, pple who say "no lar, i'm not good" and do not mean it are hypocritical; pple who really mean it when they say it suffer from an inferiority complex; yet pple who accept praise tt is due (not one bit more) are the truely humble ones.

let's not be afraid to graciously thank others for their sincere congragulations on our successes in life; yet also learn not to feel shocked when someone actually accepts praise when we offer it.

break

blogging now from macs at east coast park! haha quite cool they have free internet access here, and due to the early hours there's no one using. :)

we just went to kallang riverside park but had to make a u-turn cause suddenly chu(1) zhuang(4) kuang(4)... X's mum wanted her to go home... so we're back here at east coast, deciding on where to go eat supper. i think probably will end up in geylang for a snack first. j&j are waiting somewhere in the area so we're going down to meet them lor.

alright gtg liao. :)

01/10 - childrens' day

happy childrens' day everyone! :) just drank the campbell instant soup sacchet, quite nice. post-prandial groginess is setting in... think i'll go sleep.

haha we celebrated andre's bdae today! happy 20th bdae andre! :)

i cut cake again when i went home. althought it was very late liao 11+ but they still waited for me to get home to sing bdae song. very touched~. it was an angie oreo cake. L in photo is alex, R is luke. my brothers. :)

this is an encore with a different cake! the one cheesie baked. i'm very touched leh, brownie cake! haha, very nice to eat also, had a hint of peanut too. there's 1 very shuai person in the photo. and tt's me! (who read this?)

what color is sijin's hair??? she brought spray-dye, those type can wash off one to test test decide what color to dye. quite special/unique, sijin can go try it!

these are the great pple who made my day so special and happy. thanks guys. :) more would be in the photo but they were not ard. note the blue furry pencil box again. 

the brownie cake was fabulous! oh yes, cheesie also brought her own candles and bdae stand. :) observe my face after eating the brownie. lost in paradise with the intense flavours rushing up to my brain. or u could diagnose facial nerve palsy.  

the neoplastic strawberry is the one b/w the candles. has a layer of slime, probably indicative of liquefactive necrosis. the cake underwent caseous necrosis. it was a yummy necrotic cake though. 

huili also came to cut cake! haha very nice of her. :) thanks ah li! 

don't talk wif ur mouth full! timo says he's very full, cannot eat anymore. :) 

yq was very sweet to offer to cut the cake and give to the pple. i kept trying to cut the cake then she scold me ask me don't touch, just let her 'settle'. haha thanks. :) 

the cake was a strawberry cheesecake! with a big neoplastic strawberry (which i ate...), simply delicious. :) 

28/09 was maf also! qich brought disney lanterns which had real cool handle mechanisms. i also got a red lantern from kim. but no candle cannot light; no stick cannot carry. haha. :) 

best friends forever! :) hehe look at the blue furry thing in my R hand. tt's my pencil case. john was laughing his head off when i showed him it. *twap*